it's been about a week since we broke up and the constant hoes he's with doesn't really help but eh what can i do about it anyways i'm sick of getting tagged over and over by people with photos of kuz and other girls like leave me the fuck alone
Haven Martinez
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havenamara: WE ARENT TOGETHER, we broke ages ago!!! that dinner we had like last week was just a friend dinner and the rest of the crew was supposed to come but yk plans get ruined and shit. now stop tagging me in shit me and kyle jus friends and idc
@kuz: u good? ^@havenamara: i'm good just sick of my phone blowing up every second of the day
@1ngram4: i didn't go coz some sexual tension ^@havenamara: shut ur mouth with that crap fo i smack u upside ur head
@user: then y'all call her stupid saying sum she still with kyle and he cheating and shit! tf also ain't y'all the same people who was saying kyle needed someone else 'better' ^@havenamara: fr they hating but the minute shit happen they act like they care but they fr just mad happy and calling me stupid when they ain't know shit
@user: there is more to this story ^@havanemara: not really the relationship jus wasn't working
ye i'm used to lying to people i just really didn't want ppl talking anymore abt me and kyle so why bother sharing what actually happened coz that's only for us to know yk
getting up and getting ready i drive over to the staples center zo and josh just said to swing by for a bit so i did just that
i walk into the building then walking into the gym looking for the boys but they weren't there so i walk to the court and i see them all practicing and i sit next to coach
"how u doing"he asks concerned "ok, idrc anymore" "ik that's a lie but hope it gets better" he says and i nod i watch's s the boys finish up then josh and zo come to me
"we going for lunch" zo says "so why did i need to come here first" i ask "no reason but we seen u staring " josh says "at what? everything in this place is ugly" i say and all heads turn to me "kuz still in the room!!" jc yells "i keep telling u u got a big mouth jord, one day ima smack the shit outta u" i say to him "what? u say everybody ugly but kuz still in here so that ain't make sense" he replies "i'm never walking in this arena again" i say getting up abt to walk out the court and the boys laugh at me "see you next game" they all yell still laughing "ye and ima wear my kyrie jersey!!! y'all ain't deserve me, rude mother fuckers!!" i yell walking out and going into the gym
i feel them damn boys following me like lost puppies
"u need sum?" i say rolling my eyes "we sorry we was just joking" they say "ik u was, i ain't mad but nah what kyle doing wit his hair? a nigga really turned ugly over a week" i say laughing and kyle gives me the finger jockingly "bitch his hair ain't change u only just noticing coz u ain't dating no more" brandon says
"i still gotta slap u for ur comment on my post so better watch ur mouth" i reply death staring him
"nah tho got luh for u man, he still one of the homies" i say to kyle
"u sure it ain't i still love you tho, i miss you" jordan loud as say and i get up quickly chasing that boy down the halls and everything till i tackle him to the ground and i hear the boys laugh
"may be short but i will murder u" i get off him smacking the back of his neck hard and he groans in pain "that better teach u to watch ur mouth" i say walking away "the devil ur dad or sum?? damnnn" jordan replies with his hand on his neck
me josh and zo just left the arena and went to sum random restaurant rn we was sitting down waiting for our food just talking
"corn on u can tell he's hurt and not himself" zo complains "ye having random bitches over everyday shows his hurt" i roll my eyes then scoffing not even trying to look at both of them all they been talking abt is how hurt kyle is did they not once think abt me, i'm the one that got cheated on! " aight so when him and katya broke up kyle had girls in and out to try and get his mind of her and cope with it. u can tell when kyle is hurt coz of something that happened. he's doing the same with u, trust me he still loves you"
"doesn't mean i'm gonna get back with him. what's to say he won't cheat on me again, yk i was just shocked coz u would think if he was treated that way he wouldn't do the same to someone else.but i feel bad abt his sister tho" i say actually feeling guilty
"what's up with his sister" they both asks "so temper when i went to flint" they nod "well it was just a joke but she was like if u break her heart i'm disowning u and rn she's not talking to him much so ig she really lived that through and i feel bad" i go on "well talk to her then"
i end up calling bri and put her on facetime "hey! u good?" she says excitedly but still wondering "yk we are still friends, i'm fine" "u and my brother shouldn't be friends. ik he cheated and shit but damn y'all deserve to be together" she says "ye abt that, can u stop ignoring him. i feel bad and i feel like he's actually sad now" i say and she laughs "oh ik, i was just waiting for u to tell me to stop coz i knew u would feel bad soon" "is everyone in ur family that evil??" i queen her and he laughs giving me a "bitch what" face
"andre literally calls u the devils daughter, i don't think we is as evil as u" "i'm gonna kill andre"
"U SHORT AS I WOULD LIKE TO SEE U TRY!" i hear him yell in the background and i laugh
"but ye i'll stop ignoring him, ik u at lunch with the other two idiots so have fun" she says b4 hanging up
"ok problem one fixed, problem two is talk to kuz" zo says as if this some sort of assignment i just nod not really trying to go into it
lunch wa sok we kinda just talked abt the breakup as this was a therapy lunch and they just wanna make sure both me and kuz good idk why breaking up affected us so much tho
rn i was in my car driving over to kyles i get to his house putting in the door code then walking in and going to his room i slowly open the door to see him laying on the bed with his hands on his face he must be thinking about something them
i walk into the room closing the door and i sit on his lap "yk a star anger could of just walked into ur house and u ain't even react" "what's left anyways" he replies "u real deep in ur feels huh?" "kinda, not really just tired" "how many rounds did u guys go" i ask and he rolls his eyes "i didn't have a girl over. just tired." "well stop rolling ur eyes at me then" "nah coz u think the worst of me" "it wouldn't be out of the ordinary considering u had a different girl over every single day for the past week" "and?...." "chill with the attitude ok, i just wanna talk and please go get tested for std's soon"
he finally sits up as i was still on his lap straddling him "whatchu wanna talk about" "your coping methods" "fuck off then" "nah i'm joking idrc but i wanted to talk abt us" "what about us?" "if this was up to me i wouldn't be doing this but josh and zo r forcing me.....idk i've always just thought from all the guys u wouldn't be the one to hurt me. yk it hurts and i've never cried over a nigga till now and eleven tho it's none of my business the constant girls doesn't make it better. i would be lying if i said i didn't still feel some type of way towards u but idk if i can even trust u." i rant
"i'm not asking u to get back with me, i mean i would want to but i'm not asking u to. i do love u and i fucked up bad ok. i promised u that i would never hurt and i did so i'm sorry."
he puts his hand around my waist looking at me
ye nothing else happened we just chilled and talked for a bit before i had to leave
