𝐐𝐮𝐢𝐱𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐜 [𝐒𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫 𝐑𝐞𝐢𝐝 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫] ✔️

𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐱𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐜 [15]

    I WAS SO SCARED, BUT I COULDN'T SHOW IT. I looked at Spencer who was looking at the video again, watching our daughter who was with us not too long ago and is now gone. I folded my arms over my chest and walked over to him, he pulled me close before kissing my cheek.

"We will find her babe" He whispered.
"I know we will" I replied.

     Emily walked over with two cups of coffee for us, she handed them to us and I sipped on the hot liquid as I held one of Dahlia's stuffed animals. Penelope was trying her best to locate where she was considering they took her favorite stuffed animal which had a tracker. Being in the FBI we had to be careful and I especially had to be careful so I had trackers put into Leo and Dahlia's favorite stuffed animals that they can't go anywhere without. Unfortunately, Penelope couldn't get a signal, they must have figured it out and destroyed it because it was even bringing it up.

     I didn't know how to feel or even what to do. I just stared, I didn't wanna lose her. Spencer was trying his hardest to keep his focus, work with the team and try and find our daughter. JJ stayed with me, trying to keep me calm.

"JJ, I don't know what to do" I whispered.
"I know y/n.." JJ frowned.
"I just want my little girl back" I looked up at her, tears in my eyes.

JJ pulled me into a hug, my tears fell from my eyes. I laid my head on her shoulder and just cried. I hated feeling useless and small. JJ knew how that felt when Henry was with Izzie Rogers, an unsub that held him, hostage, basically. Spencer walked over, he sat next to us.

"We got a location" He whispered.
"Where?" I asked.
"Goldberg Avenue" Emily spoke.
"What's over there?" I questioned.
"We aren't entirely sure" She added.
"Well, who's going to check it out?" JJ asked.
"We are" Spencer replied.
"You think taking Y/N out there is the best idea right now?" JJ questioned.
"I need to find my daughter" I spoke.

We put on our vests in the SUV, we made sure they were on correctly before we got to our destination. Once we got there we all got out, drawing our guns. We cautiously walked in, I slowed my breathing as I looked around. There was only one abandoned building that was bought recently, that was where the signal was coming from. JJ kicked the door open, we all walked in. I heard soft crying and I lowered my gun. They let me go investigate the noise while they covered me, I followed the noise.

There she was, laying on the cold hard floor. I gently scooped her into my arms. I began to cry, happy tears. I heard a gun go off and I quickly covered her ears. My head turned and I tried to figure out where the noise came from.

"Y/N! GET OVER HERE NOW" JJ screamed.

I held DeeDee, rushing to where JJ was. I saw Spencer laying on the ground blood pooling around him. My eyes widened and I held back a sob as I held her. Emily had already called 911. I sat down next to him and grabbed his hand with my free hand.

"We got her handsome, don't let go" I whispered.
"I lo-love you y/n." Spencer choked out, he was pale.
"You can't leave us, Spence, you have Leo and Dahlia. They need you! I need you!" I began to sob.

When we got to the hospital I stayed in the waiting room while they had him in surgery. Will brought Leo to the hospital along with a change of clothes for DeeDee. When Leo saw DeeDee in my arms, he squealed and got so happy.

"DeeDee!" He smiled, running over to us.
"Hi baby" I whispered, kneeling down so he could hug his sister.
"Where daddy?" Leo asked.
"He's getting fixed up baby" I replied.
"Daddy gon be okay?" He asked.
"I think so" I answered.

What do I tell a one-year-old? I sit down, DeeDee in my arms and Leo on my lap. We had ended up falling asleep because we were woken up two hours later by the doctor. I let Penelope take DeeDee from me and JJ take Leo since they were both fast asleep still.

"What's going on?" I asked.
"He's stable for now, Spenceer is in a coma. We are gonna monitor him" His doctor said.
"He's gonna wake up though right?" I questioned.
"We don't know for sure" He replied.

I felt the tears come back to my eyes. I nodded and he led me to his room, when we got in there I could barely recognize the man I loved laying on that hospital bed, covered in wires. I pulled a chair over and sat next to him, I gently grabbed his hand as tears rolled down my cheeks. I texted Penelope to let her know she could bring the kids in, I shakily sighed before hearing Leo's little footsteps.

"Daddy!" He yelled.
"Shh baby, Daddy's sleeping" I whispered, patting my lap.
Leo climbed onto my lap and looked at Spencer "Daddy, DeeDee's back! I miss her lot!"

I smiled watching him talk to Spencer, I hoped Spencer could hear him. I just held him on my lap, letting the tears fall off my cheeks. Penelope held Dahlia as she stayed with me, Penelope said she would stay with me for as long as I needed.

"Mommy said you're just sleeping daddy, but you no sleep lot" He whispered.
I frowned. "He's gonna be sleeping for a while baby.."
"Why Mommy?" Leo asked.
"He just is baby" I replied.

How was I supposed to explain that to him?

FOUR WEEKS LATER

Four weeks, four weeks without Spencer. I couldn't do it anymore, I got a call from the hospital asking me what I wanted to do. If I wanted to essentially kill the love of my life or keep him miserable and hooked up to machines that are keeping his heart beating. Penelope has been staying at the house with me, helping me take care of the kids.

I got ready for the day, I put on one of Spencer's sweaters and a pair of my leggings. I made a decision, I couldn't put Spencer through being miserable the rest of his life. I wanted to tell the team before I went to the hospital. When I got to the office I asked everyone to meet me at his desk, they all looked at me.

"A few days ago I was asked if I was gonna pull Spencer off of life support" I choked out.
"Oh Y/N..." Emily frowned.
Everyone had tears in their eyes, even Rossi.
"I decided I'm gonna pull him off of life support, he wouldn't wanna be on it the rest of his li-life" I sobbed
"You're making the right decision, I know you are but I ca-can't imagine anything without him" JJ spoke, tears rolling down her cheeks.
"Neither can I Jayge. I don't even know how to tell Leo his dad isn't waking up nor is he coming back.." I wiped my eyes.

Everyone pulled me into a hug and we all cried together for a solid hour I think.  After, they let me go. I drove to the hospital, knowing what I needed to do. When I got there I took a deep breath before walking in. I walked in, the nurse immediately recognized me and I sighed quietly before nodding. She immediately knew.

"I'm so sorry Mrs. Reid" She spoke.
I felt the tears fall down my cheeks, I wasn't even Mrs. Reid. "Thank you.."
The nurse lead me to his room even though I knew where it was, I've been going there for the past four weeks.

I sat down next to his bed and grabbed his hand. I looked at his pale body as I listened to the monitors.

"I'm so so-sorry Spence" I sobbed out. "Just know I love you so so much, an-and Leo and Dahlia love you more than you will ever know."

The doctor came in with the papers. I began to sign them, staring at them for a while. When I was ready I handed them back to the doctor. They slowly pulled him off of the machines, I watched the love of my life take his last breath.

Spencer Walter Reid I'll never forget about how you seemed to make my life so unrealistically quixotic.

Authors Note: AHHH IM SORRY IT'S SUCH A SAD ENDING! but i'm glad to be working on my newer stories now :) i'm sad that this story has ended but thank you for all the love on this story.