Insane ~ taekook

Chapter 11 ~ Hurt

M i s t a k e

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For just a few short seconds Taehyung felt himself melt into the kiss... that was until reality hit him like a brick

Within seconds he pulled himself back slowly backing towards the door, grabbing his bag

"Tae I'm so sorry" jungkook stood up and started to walk closer to the other who just kept backing away from him, panicking

"I- I have a girlfriend, I- I'm- I'm not... like that" Taehyung blurted out, stopping jungkook in his tracks "I should go" before jungkook could even reply, Taehyung was gone

Running as fast as he could through the hallway he tried to process everything that just happened but it felt surreal like he was about to wake up from a nightmare

Dodging everything in his path he got to the stairs, pushing passed people to try to get out of there.

When he got to the first floor he foolishly looked away for a single second and managed to run into a man in a white lab coat, making him drop all of his files

Taehyung hurriedly picked the pieces of paper up and handed them back.

He had no idea why he was running or was so eager to get out, like as if doing so would turn back time but he couldn't stay there any longer

Just as he was about to reach the doors someone stood in front of him

"What are you doing?" Dr Jung asked, crossing her arms and not letting the boy passed

"I-I... I need to leave"

"What did you do?"

"I didn't do anything I just really need to go home now, my uh... my brothers in the hospital"

Although she didn't believe his pathetic lie she still moves as she couldn't actually force him to stay

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So many thoughts was going through taehyungs mind as he was driving home, not even paying any attention to the road

Why did he kiss me

Does he like me?

Does he even like guys?

Why didn't I immediately stop it?

But one thing scared him more then then anything

What if I loose him?

Taehyung replayed the situation a thousand times in his mind and thought of all the different ways he could've reacted but no, he chose the way that made him an asshole

He just needed to go home and clear his mind then go back tomorrow and try to sort the situation out

Countless possibilities of how things could turn out was racing through taehyungs thoughts until a loud noise muted all of them

The sound of a car beeping his horn at him stopped him from completely swerving off of the road

Soon he pulled over for a minute before getting into any sort of car accident

While Hitting his head against the steering wheel the sound of message came through on his phone

Quickly, without thinking Taehyung picked the phone up and opened the messages

Kookie🐰🍪:
I'm so so so so sorry I really
didn't mean to do that PLEASE
don't leave me

Can we just forget any of this
happened

Please tae answer me
[read]

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Taehyung couldn't possibly reply, what was he going to say? Was he supposed to lie and say it's fine or say that he'll forget about it when he knows he couldn't?

He just needed some time

He couldn't feel anything like that towards jungkook even if he wanted to he just couldn't, everything his family put him through was to stop that from ever happening and yet he still couldn't stop replaying that kiss in his mind over and over again

Truthfully even tho it was short and completely unexpected it felt more real, more right, then anything he had ever done with Jennie but he would never let himself admit it

He started driving again after switching his phone off then turning on the radio to try to stop himself from thinking too much and to concentrate on the road but it didn't help as much as he thought it would so he started to think about his girlfriend and how much he loved her, or how much he made himself believe he loved her, but the more he repeated to himself 'I love jennie' the more the words meant nothing, the more they started to sound fake

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Jungkook focus

Sat in a dark room with blood still everywhere jungkook felt like he was about to scream

Not once before did he think for even a second he had feelings for Taehyung so why did he kiss him

He had never kissed anyone before in his life besides his parents and at this moment he never wanted to ever again

He felt so stupid and unbelievably heartbroken

Taehyung was the one good thing he had in his life and he had to ruin everything! It felt like the universe just wanted him to be miserable for the rest of his life.

He just needed to talk to Taehyung, he even texted him but the older didn't reply, then when he called him it went straight to voicemail

There was only one contact name in his phone besides taehyungs and it was probably a stupid idea but it was all he had

Tapping the call icon he brought the phone to his ear and within seconds had an answer

"Hyung I really messed up and I don't know what to do"

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The second he got home he threw his bag down and had music playing through his spare AirPods, so he didn't hear any of the noises that could be heard throughout the whole apartment

In such a rush to just lie down he ran over to his bedroom not thinking at anyone else was home and certainly not expecting to see what was going on

When he opened the door he instantly jumped back tripping over his own feet and falling to the floor, immediately getting up and running into the living room now having that image scarred into his mind making his day go from bad to bad to even worse

Now engraved in taehyungs memory was the image of yeonjun naked on top of some guy

His little brother having sex

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