The Guilt In Me

~~Crazy me or crazy you~~

Past (December 2004)

Note: Words in Italics are for past events.

"Ma, I want me candy like him too" Little Christian whined, tugging on his mother's sweater while she sat by the hearth knitting a pretty little soft pink sweater for their soon-coming baby girl. "Mama candy-"

"I heard you, Chris. Can you wait for a little while like a good boy?" Georgia cooed, placing the knitting wool aside then caressed his rosy cheeks while he nodded hastily. "Andrew my love, please come help mama."

Georgia called her eldest boy out while he was busy playing with his favourite green power ranger at the corner of the living room, it was the season for holidays; Christmas was around the corner and the whole house was glittering with lights from every corner. Christian just turned four last month and was at a stage where he wanted every single thing his elder brother would touch.

Andrew upon hearing his mother's call gathered his toys in his arms and scrambled on his feet, walking hurriedly up to her with his ever-present big sweet smile. He was never much vocal from the time he began to talk but he'd do everything his mother would ask him to and Georgia never had any problem with her eldest speaking less; after all, actions speak louder than words.

"Sweety, can you grab me the box of candy from the kitchen?" Georgia asked, running her fingers through her son's soft wavy hair while he obediently obeyed, running to get the box in an instant.

Andrew is Georgia's firstborn and no matter what, she loved him with her whole heart, at the age of three he was diagnosed with ADHD and that was the beginning of downfalls in Andrew's life, his father began treating him differently, he began associating Andrew's disease with Georgia's last boyfriend she dated before they got married and boy did he want to badly get rid of his son even though every medical test and word from his wife proved that Andrew was his own child.

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"Helloooo anyone homeee?" Jonathan's voice boomed through the living room, as he playfully came into the living room in the peek-a-boo while Christian scurried to his father in a flash and crashed into his father's arm wrapping his little arms for a tight hug as soon as he was scooped up. "Woahhh, big boy, my boy. How are you?"

"I nice" Christian replied in his toddler language, making both the parents chuckle lovingly.

"Oh yeah? That's awesome, were you good to mama?" He asked, making the little boy nod with his toothless smile, "and how is my beautiful wife?" Jonathan placed Christian down as began to wiggle in his arms and greeted his wife with a brief kiss. "Missed you."

"Oh hush, you busy man, spending only a second for me" Georgia joked waving her hands, making him let out a hearty laugh. "Well, I missed you too, Jon."

"Geog-owh. What the heck!" Jonathan yelled when a body harshly collided with his legs and a jar of juice crashed on the floor littering all over the light coloured carpet. On the floor there laid Andrew, scrunched face in pain, while his mother gasped in shock at the sudden fuzz. Jonathan angrily picked the boy up by his arms with his deepest scowl. "Where are your eyes?! Can't you see your mama has a baby, what if she was hurt."

Andrew shrunk visibly and shook his head, "I'm sorry. I just wanted to give you a hug."

"Oh yeah?! I know you did this on purpose, you sneaky slow bastar-"

"Jon don't!" Georgia exclaimed, pulling Andrew to her, "It's just an accident, come on-"

"But you could have gotten hurt and now we have a whole carpet stained with fuc-"