I want you [Taehyung ff]

Chapter 40

"Ah-Ahhh harder daddy, harder" Jimin groaned as he pushed his hips up into Hyejin. 

She moaned some more into his ear before she trailed kisses down to his neck and bit him there. On any other day, Jimin would have moaned, roughly pulled her hair and would've warned her to behave. But today, today he just pushed her off his dick.

Hyejin made an uncomfortable grunting sound as she felt Jimin pull himself out so harshly and at the now empty feeling. 

"What the fuck Jimin?!" She exclaimed.

"This is an everyday thing now. What's wrong with you?! I'm leaving, only contact me when you get that idiotic brain of yours fixed" She got up, wore her clothes and slammed the door shut.

Jimin pulled his knees to his chest, soft dick laying against his belly as he stared into space. He jerked with wide eyes when he felt a little wetness on his face. He touched his cheeks and realized he was crying. He hadn't cried in months.

He sighed as he wore his clothes, not even bothering to wipe his tears or get himself bathed. He grabbed his car keys and left his house. He started the engine and sighed, this was going to be a long drive to Busan.

It had been a couple of months since Jimin had encountered the three bestfriends, a couple of months since his empty feeling had grown even stronger, a couple of months since he had stopped feeling any kind of sexual pleasure. Hyejin, who was capable of pleasuring him the most, had also failed, every time in the past couple of months. He didn't know what was wrong with him. He felt like he was going back to being his previous self. They say that once the mind or body gets used to something, it stops reacting to that thing. It felt like Jimin was used to sex now. He was bored. He had finally realized that fucking and pleasure wasn't the only source of happiness and contentment. The Jimin who was always thirsty for pleasure yearned for love now, for the feeling of being loved. But he knew, no one would love him. He had broken all of his loved ones and family's hearts. He hated himself, who he had become. He wanted to return to being the old Jimin, and what better place to start that journey than home itself?

After a six hour long drive with no breaks in between, Jimin finally reached his birthplace, where he had originated, where the real Jimin was born. All this sex and girls had created a fog around him, a fake reality, something that could only last for so long. He wanted to be back to normal, to focus on fixing his life and fixing himself first. 

He rung his parent's doorbell. It was about 10 p.m. right now. He wondered if they would open the door, they usually slept early. He had to wait for only a mere few seconds, before he heard the clicking of a lock and the door swung open to reveal his life giver, his mother. Just looking at her made him smile, put a real smile on his face unlike all those smug smiles and smirks. He hadn't laughed or smile for real in so long, his heart ached for it.

Even in the complete darkness, Mrs. Park had recognized her son. Not only that, she also understood why he was here. Any mother could read their child like an open book, she did too. But in this case, it really wasn't necessary. It was written all over Jimin's face. The dark circles, red, sleep deprived sad eyes, pale skin, thinner than usual body screamed at Mrs. Park that her child wasn't okay and he needed her the most.

Jimin didn't let his mother speak even a word before he tightly enveloped her in his arms. She understood that he needed the warmth, so she didn't speak either, just let her son cry in her bosom.

After a few minutes of staying silent, Jimin finally croaked out in between harsh pants and tears, "Ma," he called her, something he hadn't in years, something he always did, especially when he was sad. "Ma I made a mistake, I'm sorry"

She shushed him, patted his hair and kissed his temple. She knew what he was talking about, obviously she did, she was his mother. Jungkook had told her, with great difficulty. The two brothers had moved from Busan to Seoul together, when their families didn't know they had a growing tension between them. 

When Jimin still tried to talk, Mrs. Park said, "Jimin, it's okay son. It's okay. Don't cry child, it's fine, we'll fix everything"

After another few minutes of Jimin crying and his mother calming him down, she brought him inside the house and shut the door. He sat on the couch and had stopped crying now. He touched the fabric, remembering himself as a happy child jumping on it.

"Where's dad?" He husked, his voice hoarse after crying like that.

"He's gone out of town, for a business trip"

"Oh, you stay alone when he goes?" He asked, a feeling of guilt arising in his stomach.

"Yeah, I have to" She smiled, sitting opposite him. 

He spoke, in a soft tone, trying to make a few things right, "Y-you should call me over the next time he's away. Or may-maybe come over in Seoul?"

"Yes son I will. Now you want to rest or talk?"

"I think I'll talk. I can't keep everything inside me anymore"

She nodded, embracing herself to get ready for her heart to shatter. Children don't realize but when their hearts break, so does their parents', especially mothers. Parents love their children so much, their problems become their own. So, Mrs. Park being the strong mother she is, got ready to listen to how broken her son feels.

"Ma I, I feel empty. There's no source of happiness in my life anymore. I thought pleasure was everything but it isn't. I don't know what to do mom. I have ruined everything, I don't know how to get everything back to normal. I ruined my life, my relationship with you, with everyone, even Jungkook"

His voice cracked as he said the name, remembering the pure rage he had seen in Jungkook's eyes. Like he wouldn't even hesitate to kill Jimin if he could. He mentioned him separately because anyone who knew the brothers as kids knew that their bond was unbreakable, invincible. But the fact that that was probably the most ruined relationship of all was clear enough proof to show that he had fucked up big time.

"What do I do?" He asked again.

"Well, first of all, get yourself checked tomorrow morning" Mrs. Park began, referring to an STD check.

"Then, you call Jungkook and apologize. We'll go step by step, don't worry, we'll fix everything"

Jimin nodded and gave a sad, yet real smile. 

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I'm pissed at 2017 me to think making the lovely Park Jimin the antagonist was a good idea 🙂

Guys the story is coming to an end slowly but surely, and honestly it pains me to do so. This is my first ever book and I really don't want to finish it but obviously, I have to. Maybe another 4-5 chapters. 

I have 2 concepts in my head for the ending, but I really don't know which one to go with. So I'll ask for your opinion, do you want Taekook and Y/N to forgive Jimin or nah? Let me knowww

Please give love to my Taekook Texts AU, For love!!

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