I want you [Taehyung ff]

Chapter 32

"Why?"

Taehyung whispered softly with his head resting on Y/N's shoulder. She had taken him in her house and immediately pulled him in her embrace. She held him tight. To give him comfort and also also warmth. He was shivering. Taehyung's hands stayed by his side, not daring to hold his world in his arms. Afraid that if he did, he wouldn't be able to let go.

Y/N could feel the dampness from Taehyung's tears on her shoulder. Seeing her love cry like that and look eerily empty made her scared and worried. She also cried now. Trying to muffle her sounds. She didn't want him to hear, she wanted him to think she was strong so that she could give him all her strength. But he knew. He knew her way too well. She wasn't only her lover, she was also his bestfriend. The fact that he may have to let go of his bestfriend too made his heart shatter. 

When Y/N heard Taehyung's question she grew still. Her rhythmic rubs on his back to calm him down stopped. A terrifying thought that she forgot about came back. 

Jimin, she thought.

Her gut told her all of this had something to do with Jimin. She prayed in her mind, begging the almighty to take care of her precious love. She slowly backed away, her arms still secure around him. But he didn't look up. He couldn't look at those deep brown orbs and stay sane. He wouldn't be able to resist himself.

"Why wh-what Tae?" She softy whispered as she stuttered, she was scared. Her voice laced with love and care.

Hearing that nickname from her mouth broke him more. He cried now. He knew he was crying now. His face changed from the empty expression to pure sadness. He fully sobbed now. Unlike last time, with Eunha, when aggression took over him, this time he felt grief and only grief. Maybe because that girl didn't mean even a quarter of what the woman in front of him meant to him. Maybe because it wasn't even love back then.

On hearing him sob, she quickly wrapped her arms around him again. Whispering soft "shh" and "it's okay" and "I love you"

On hearing the last phrase, he gently shook his head and whispered "no, you don't" which was barely audible. 

But she heard it and as soon as she did, she lifted his head from her shoulder, cupped his cheeks and forced him to look at her.

Taehyung finally got the opportunity to look at her face. He knew she was crying but after looking at her face he realised how bad she was crying.

Her eyes were red and puffy, the tip of her nose was also completely red. Tears still flowed down her face. Her neck and the collar of her night dress wet because of them. Though he's been crying for hours and she has only been crying since 15 minutes, their faces almost looked the same. That is how hard she had been crying.

She was ready to shed her tears for him.

She was ready to share his pain.

This just confused him more.

He reluctantly forced his hands up to softly wipe away her tears. He couldn't see her cry. He still loved her. He could also see the love in her eyes. He just wanted to hear, needed to hear from her, that she still loved him.

"Tae, what are you saying?" She looked at him like he was a maniac. A maniac for thinking that she had stopped loving him.

"I don't know what happened," she said between sniffs, her voice rough and hoarse.

"I don't know who told you what. But really? You really thought I could stop loving you?" 

Taehyung looked down, probably in shame. The wronged became the one who did the wrong. 

"Tae I love you and Jungkook more than I could ever love my family or my life. I would choose you and him over them any day. If I had an option to settle down with you now and never meet my family, I would be with you. Because that's just how much I love you and even though I might sound crazy, its true. I love my family, but after what I've had to go through because of them, its just not the same. They've given me more pain than love. And you? You've only given me love baby, only love. You're my safe place. I don't know what home is unless I'm in your arms. You're probably so sad because you think I don't love you. You probably think I'm going to leave you. But do you even know that I won't be able to live without you? Heck, I can't even control myself if I don't see you for a day. When you don't pick up my phone or answer my texts, I start panicking, like a fool. Scary thoughts fill my head. But then I get the news that you were just way too busy playing video games with Kookie. I just need to hear your voice to calm down. Just need your presence to feel safe. I'm nothing without you, and you really think I don't love you."

Taehyung couldn't stop himself after he heard her. He let his guard down, let his heard shell break, once again in front of this woman. The one who melted his ice cold heart. He wrapped his arms around her now. He held her tight as if he was holding on her for life, which he probably was. If this was the last time she would be in his arms, he wanted to cherish this moment. He did not want to regret later.

Y/N returned the hug.

He then whispered with his broken voice, "Then why?"

"Why what baby?" she replied

"Why did I see so many pictures of you with Park Jimin?"

And Y/N's heart stopped.

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