Chapter 2 : Nevada, A New Objective (May 2015)
"Rowenthal. Do you hate yourself?." Asked him
"Me?. Hate myself?. Well. It's unwise, to be asking any American youth that these days, on contrary to our fantastical hatred, I believe." Answered Row
"Uh huh." He said. Then he asked again; "Why are you......like this Row?"
"What is with the questions sir?." Row asked feeling unpleasant
"Sir?. Please. I've been places that I shouldn't be called a sir, so please." He answered with a sharp giggle
"Well.......I don't know." Row confused
"What do you mean you don't know?." He asked again
"I mean. I. I don't know. It just. I don't know how to express.....things nowadays. Now I am just.......an unthinkable prick." Row committed
"You ain't a prick to me." He joked
"That is because you only met me for a few hours, in the middle of somewhere. Tell you what, You telling me that you have been somewhere, I bet I have been more than just 'somewhere'. I....I did a lot of things." Row became more serious
"Like?......" he tried playing with Row
Row then answered with a bit of guilt and anger; "I. Well. I don't know. I have been.......a bad man outside my shine. I. I am doing...doing all this for certainly nothing. I. I. I. I feel empty now. Whatever I do, I thought one day that emptiness can be filled someday by doing something. Turns out, that fails, that sucks. I.........had issues with my childhood. I. I beat up teenagers. Oh, wanna know something worse ?, I beat up kids, whether they intend to beat me up first, or if I had a sense that they want to mess with me. Yet, I had some brawls with toddlers too. I am possibly fighting against the rights and wrongs of US education, ever since they listened to the demands of depressed kids, like us, like me!. You see, I am a nobody, I do nothing for nothing!. And yet if everything I did, in this freaking Youth Conflict, if that is my standards, then no wonder I am screwed."
"I know that feeling. Troubled, that is. It is like losing my fiancé that night. It is called loss, you lost someone didn't you?." He guessed, remembering the past
"I lost everything. I lost all of it that not even you, my partners, nor me can fill it back, you see!, people think that what I do is either beneficial or critical, but then again deep inside I am doing it for nothing, yet I still do it, I don't know what's wrong with me!!." Row said socially
"I see. You sure the Youth Conflict didn't happen to cause you this?, as a college student?." He asked
"No. No. Well. I don't know, and I don't really care." Row aggrieved
"I see, then why don't you keep caring Rowenthal?." He asked
"Because, BECAUSE.......I DON'T KNOW!!!. I HAD A HAPPY FAMILY THEN IT WAS TAKEN AWAY!. I HAD TO MOVE TO ANOTHER FAMILY!. I TRIED BEING GRATEFUL FOR WHAT WORSE TO COME!. YET AGAIN I LOST MY OTHER FAMILY TOO RIGHT WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO CHASE MY DREAMS AND BE HAPPY WITH THEM!!!!!. ME, MY LITTLE AUTOPSY, IS FLAT BROKEN!. NOW, NOW, I JUST GOT ACCEPTED TO UNIVERSITY WHICH I HAD PURPOSE BEFORE, WITH A SCORE OF 800 IN ENGLISH AND 750 IN MATHS, NOW FOR NOTHING!. AND HEY GUESS WHAT, I HAD MORE PROBLEMS THAT WAS EVEN STARTED FROM MY 'SOCIAL LIFE'. YOU WANT TO KNOW THE FACT, 'SIR'?!; I AM BROKEN!, I AM TORMENTED!!, EVERYTHING IS SCREWED!!!!. I AM SO SCREWED THAT NOW I HAVE TO GO TO NEVADA TO DO SOMETHING IN MY LIFE.......AND I, I, I TRUSTED A OLD THIEF TO DRIVE MY BALENO TO VEGAS AFTER HE ROBBED SOME PLACE IN THE MIDDLE OF A FREAKING TOWN, AND I AM NOT EVEN WORRIED ONE BIT IF HE IS EVER GOING TO ROB ME. CAUSE YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY, I AM NOTHING NOW, LIFE WOULD STILL BE HELL IF I WAS EVEN DEAD, EVERYTHING IS SCREWED, IT IS JUST......FREAKING SCREWED!!!!!!." Shouted Row, letting everything all out
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Mystery / ThrillerRowenthal is just a young man who could not move on from all the chaos that is plaguing the whole State, specifically, its youth and his delusion. "It is the matter of his governance, his standing, or his family." -Ryu...
