Stephon's Short Stories

13: "To Be Honest"

To be honest

When we first got together I was head over heels
And you felt the same way man you gave me chills

But I'd be lying to you right now if I said I was happy
But most of the nights I lay here feeling so sappy

Maybe we didnt wait to long
Because everyday I feel like I'm doing sum wrong

But to be honest

I know I'm mature living like an adult
But you wouldnt understand that which ain't your fault

And these problems we have ain't just my fault
There's been plenty of times that you've been caught

Treating me like shit and swearing you love me
But sometimes I dont feel that shit which I find funny

But to be honest

Ion know why I even stay
It seems like I'm happier when you're away

Sometimes I just wish I was free
Just to feel okay with wanting to be me

I say I love you countless times to you
And you never say it back I have no clue

But when you do it's only because I get sad
And I supposed that my sadness makes you feel bad

But to be honest

I deserve much better
But I settle for less cause I'm not that clever

Sometimes I worry what's the cause of my stress
Everytime I try speak of it you get pressed

But...to be honest

I shouldn't be happier when you arent around me
But it seems like you're the cause of my stress how could that be?

To be honest, to be honest

I can't even take naps or go to friends houses
Without you getting bitter like I don't understand this logic

And some people tried to warn me that you wasnt good for me
But I didnt listen cause my mind wasnt at key

But to be honest

If I even showed you this shit
You'd get offended and throw a fit

Don't get me wrong I love you to fucking death
But some relationships just dont got time left

I love you I love you I can say it all day
But I'm not sure if you feel the same way.