Mrs.Mafia Giovanni

CHAPTER 12-CRAZY🙂

MAZE POV

"YOU'VE GOT TO BE FUCKING CRAZY, WE ARE NOT GETTING MARRIED "

"WE ARE GETTING MARRIED AND THAT IS FINAL"

Christò and I have been arguing for two fucking hours I can't stand him

how could he go from sweet, charming and patient to aggressive annoying and demanding

ahhhhhh he makes me so angry

"if you are forcing me to get married just know it'll never be a happy one and I'll forever hate you for this" I spoke breaking the silent arguing that we had going on with our eyes, but the look in his eyes quickly made me regret my decision of speaking

his eyes held:
        disappointment
        hurt
        fury
        frustration

jaw clenched eyebrows together eyes glaring lips slightly frowned

and then his fist collided with his desk hard
*thud* the desk cracked

"get out" his voice finally came low and dangerous

"I fucking hate you" my voiced cracked and tears pooled my eyes "fuck off"

with that I walked out his office into the kitchen towards the liquor then to my bedroom

slamming the door shut and locking it not that it matters if I lock it or not because he has a key if he wants to come in

I sat by the floor to ceiling windows and downed the bottle of absolute thinking about my life i started to cry why am I this unlucky if god knew I wasn't going to have a happy life why did me still make me?

"why didn't mom had an abortion or a miscarriage?" *sob*

"why am I here?" *sob *

"why haven't I died?" *sob*

"why am I a disappointment?" *sob*

"why did he leave me?" *sob*

"why did he treat me like this?" *sob*

"this is all your fucking fault God why? just fucking tell me why am I here? why am I still alive?" *sob* *sob* *sob* *thud* *blam*

looking up I saw the last person I taught would come after me him

"w-w-WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?" eyes wide and and stammering Christò walked into my room probably noticing the blood

"why" *sob* "do you" *sob* "care?" *sob*
"stop" *sob* "acting" *sob* " like" *sob* "you" *sob* "care" *sob* "because we" *sob* "know you" *sob* "dont"

"what?" he asked softly reaching me
"you don't think I care?" his eyes got teary for a second and he blinked it away

he picked me up and walked us into my bathroom and placed me on the bathroom countertop

he returned with a medical kit in hand
"give me your hand" he said softly almost like he cared
he took my hand "this will sting a bit" he put rubbing alochol on the fresh cuts but it didn't sting nor burn I'm a custom to it
his eyebrows came together in confusion
"it doesn't burn?"

"no" I answer honestly and numbly he just nodded

"I'm sorry" he was the first to break the silence after he finished cleaning the wound "I'm sorry for every thing"

"there's nothing to be sorry for" I was about to jump off the counter and walk away but he came close and hugged me

I didn't hug him back tho

"you are not and I repeat are not a disappointment" he lookedd  into my eyes and that showed he was serious "I'm happy your mom didn't get a miscarriage nor abortion because your now a big part of my life"  where this all coming from
"you haven't died because I can't like without you" he lifted my chin with his pointer finger when I looked down "I don't know who he is but he's an asshole for leaving you and I'm so sorry for whatever he did"

he lifted my hand and flipped it over to the cuts and kissed it lightly "just please don't do this to your self" his voice almost cracking "please"

"you were listening to me" I finally managed to get out

"I'm sorry I'm guilty of that just" he sighed "please don't think of the marriage as something bad i-i I'm doing this to protect you just please trust me"

"trust you? you want to trust you? you ruined my life i was happy where I was and you came in and ruined it you ruined it all why? why me? why does it have to be me?"

"I don't know" he answer barely above whisper "trust me please I'm sorry" a tear left his eye

does he really think I'll fall for it
"I'll marry you because your basically forcing me to but I promise you I'll never love you " with that the tears came back but at this moment he didn't care about what I said he just hugged me and I held onto him like he's my life line