Is It Really True? Killua x Suicidal reader

your past

"He was my dad's friend.."

killua looked confused "tell me more?"

"Well it's a really long story more like my life story."

"We got time!"

"Alright."

Flashback

I was so young and naive I had a mom a dad and.. and a best friend, her name was ally me and her were friends for years since we were 4 to the age of 15 but one day she disappeared.

To this day I still don't know where she is.. My dad said it was all my fault that I didn't deserve to have friends cause they will trade on me or I'll trade on them,

so I stopped having friends. My dad however didn't trust me he hired this guy to quote on quote be my body guard.

But if anything he didn't protect me sometimes he'd help my dad abuse me or when we were alone he'd do things kinda like earlier but no one was there to save me..

But when my mom went missing last year my dad balmed me and the beatings got worse..

Usually my mom would try to stop him even if he didn't stop she would still be there after and hug me tell me it would be alright and she had my side,

she wanted me to be happy she wanted me to have friends but my dad didn't like that idea and one day she ended up missing and my dad made us move a year later why? I don't really know,

he told me he had business over here but he's always drunk and yelling on the phone. I thought Alex would disappear after we moved but I guess not...

End of flashback

After I basically narrated my life water started coming out of my eyes I tried to hide it then killua gave me a warm hug

"y/n I'm here and so is gon and cora we won't turn on you or leave you, you got us now it's okay" he stated

'i like this it feels nice.. but what if he leaves to whatever just answer and stop talking to yourself like a complete weirdo...'

"thank you snowball" killua pulls away with his face looking like a tomato "s-snowball?"

"Yep! Your hair is white and fluffy like a snow ball"

"baka don't say that it's embarrassing"

"it's not embarrassing you just love it" I teased.

He throws a pillow at me "l-lets go to sleep"

"okayyy~" I say getting ready to go on the floor

"what are you doing you get the bed I'll get the floor" he said as he got a grip on my wrist.

"no I'm not taking your bed I'll get the floor"

"no me"

"no me"

"no me"

"no me"

"no me"

"no me"

"no me"

"no me"

yeah this continued for about ten minutes

"fine I either get the floor or we both sleep on the bed!" I yelled

"f-fine baka" he said as he flicked my forehead

"owww meanie" we both laid on the bed facing each other

"goodnight~"

"goodnight~" we both closed our eyes and started to fall asleep

'i need to hug something I can't sleep ugh' I then look at killua

'he looks so peaceful maybe he won't mind if I hug him?'

I then hug killua with my head in his chest and I was finally able to fall asleep

(Killua's pov)

I felt y/n hug me as she tested her head in my chest I couldn't help but blush 'goddamnit killua stop blushing!  She is kind of cute though I'll just hug her back' I put my arms around y/n and have my head on top of hers 'its gonna be alright y/n i promise' and I felt myself drift into a sleep

P.s I tried something new with the placement of the words why? Cause I was bored :p
TBC

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