Is It Really True? Killua x Suicidal reader

Relaxing with my... Boyfriend?

"Killua I don't think I can keep that promise..." I look up into his eyes they look sad.. So I decided to speak up. "Killua I can't keep that promise because..." I pause and he looks up into my e/c eyes while I stare into his beautiful sapphire ones "I loved you since the moment I laid eyes on you..." His beautiful eyes seemed to widen at my comment, "Y/n...'' in that moment I felt the world has stopped I felt like I stared into his eyes for years until he continued taking me out of my trance "Y/n.. will you be mine?" My heart fluttered, at that moment I didn't hesitate I smashed my lips right into his.. As for him he didn't pull away however he continued it and it led to a passionate kiss.... That was till we made it at the bottom letting us know our ride was over.  We then pulled away and left he went to grab my giant panda then he grabbed my hand and we walked out of the carnival  hand in hand. Most of the walk was silent but  not awkward just silent, that was until killua spoke up breaking our silence "so are you coming to school tomorrow?" His question caught me off guard for a second but then I looked at him and smiled "yeah, but I'm wearing your hoodies and sweat pants! also- we need to apologize to Gon we totally ditched him yesterday!" Killua looked shocked and then sweat dropped making him scratch his head "Yeah I guess you're right and yeah yeah go ahead and wear my clothes" He jokingly rolls his eyes "we are almost home I'll let you shower first " "Thanks Snowball" "Don't mention it Kitten~"

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After me and Killua had taken our showers (separate we aren't doing all that... ) Killus suggested we watch a movie "so what movie do you want to watch?" he asks making me think...... "OOO I KNOW!!! WE SHOULD WATCH f/a/m (favorite anime movie) "sounds good to me" Killua included, As the movie played and killua laid down with me in his arms I felt that warm feeling again like I was finally home he was my home 

Before I knew it I was out like a light. Well that was until DING DING DIN- Killua's alarm had went off waking both of us up, "Good morning Kitten how did you sleep?" "I slept good, however I did go to sleep really early I didn't even get to watch the first 2 seconds of the movie!" I said kind of disappointed "It's okay kitten we can watch it some other time okay"  (part of me feels like this isn't really the  actual way he would act... i'm sorry ill make him more like his character) "yeah yeah lets get ready for school" i say as he gets up and i follow right behind him and we proceed to get ready

Once we got ready we ate breakfast and headed to school yet again hand in hand 'its kind of weird to say i have a boyfriend i mean i did grow up thinking i was worthless and all but still i mean its not that i dont like it i just cant get used to it cause with every good thing a bad thing is sure to come.... I guess we will see'

after my train of thought had ended we were at the school already, i headed to vlass with killus since hes in my first hour with mr.leorio i get into the class and proceed to sit down and everyone seems shocked? And thats when whispers occur i just lay my head down until class starts. A few minutes pass and mr. leorio comes in "oh, y/n your here"

"yeah yeah just proceed to bored us" i say and earn a few chuckles and giggles some coming from killua. class was going good until something hit the back of my head, i touch to feel a piece of paper folded into a poorly made airplane as i open it i see

"if you dont stay away from killua we will have problems and you will not like it I promise you that" i simply scoffed and ripped it to where she can see me and i hear her do that annoying girl scream "UGH"  yeah that one  I turned to look at becca i think her name was, the one who wore to much makeup yeah her, i look at her and do the most Prettiest smile ever ☺️ and she looks so pissed its very funny to me

after class she tried to come up to me but i just simply left like the bad bitch i am and since i knew no one in this class i just went to bed, "/n...../n.... Y/N!!!!" I jumped up from my seat to see my teacher mr. wing yelling at me "what i was sleeping?" He looked mad but i was, i was sleeping and it felt nice until he woke me up🙄

"Office wants you." Is what he said before taking a pause to speak again "oh and grab your stuff" i look at him like hes crazy why do i need my stuff!? But i simply said "yeah yeah" and i walk out before i make it to the office i get a bad feeling but i quickly shrug it off and walk inside and thats when i heard it

"Y/n you made it!" I was petrified....

A/n sorry i havent posted in a while ive been really busy and dealing with stuff of my own but i promise to try harder and since im posting this at 11:30 it is still killuas birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY KILLUAAAAAA!!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️