Eleanor Mendrez

31 Eleanor

We were back in our hotel the next day. We all decided to go straight in our rooms because we all looked like we didn't get much sleep. Komportable naman ako sa tent ko kagabi at sakto lang ang lamig sa loob. Kung tutuusin ay ang sarap pa sa tenga nung tunog ng dagat at ang payapa ng sobrang katahimikan. Pero paano akong makakatulog pagkatapos nang naging usapan namin ni Gabriel? It wasn't as if it ended badly. I just couldn't process and accept everything yet. Upon saying goodbye, I even said I love him and I miss him.

Okay na kami pero parang hindi pa rin nababawasan 'yung bigat sa dibdib ko. Hindi sapat 'yung nakausap ko lang s'ya sa telepono. Kailangan kong umuwi sa kanya.

It was almost lunch time when I went out of my room. I already took a shower and I was on my summer dress. Bumaba ako sa lobby at napatigil pa sa may glass doors dahil hindi ko naman alam kung saan ako pupunta. We were supposed to learn surfing today but my brother wasn't up yet from his sleep. Kung gising na 'yun ay kanina pa n'ya ako ginugulo.

If I was right, we'd be checking out of this hotel tomorrow. We would be moving to a resthouse in a different beach resort. I was informed but I wasn't paying attention to the details. Kahit pa gusto kong magreklamo ay wala namang makikinig sa akin.

I sighed and decided to go back to my room and change into workout clothes. I made sure to bring my phone and airpods with me. After this, I would pretend I'd be too tired to go surfing.

While waiting for the elevator, I checked my messages. Most of them were from Tati, Lia and Karyl. Wala man lang ni isa mula kay Gabriel.

I bit my lip and thought so hard if I should send him a text. I was about to compose a message but the elevator opened. I locked my phone and went inside.

When I arrived to the gym, there were only two people. It was too late to be working out and normally, they'd be out in the beach at this hour. Water activities were enough to be considered as exercise. Nakakapagod kaya.

I plugged my airpods in and randomly chose a workout playlist. The first song was Physical by Dua Lipa.

I did some stretching for few minutes before proceeding to the treadmill. I realised I was in a bad shape when I started panting just by running slowly for two minutes. Pinilit kong tapusin ang limang minuto roon bago ako nagpasyang tumigil.

The duration of my rest were longer than my exercise. I spent five minutes on the stair mill and another five minutes on the rowing machine before going to the weights. Hindi ko alam kung ilang minuto akong nag-iisip doon sa gilid na nauwi rin sa pag-upo sa isang bench dahilan para matuyo nanaman ang pawis ko.

Shake It Off by Taylor Swift was playing when I started again. I wasn't able to finish the song when I gave up on this weight machine. It was so frustrating that curses were rolling in my head. I didn't know what was making me angry so much.

Sa bandang huli, nagpunta ako sa matted floor at nag-plank. Wala pang isang minuto ay nanginginig na ang buong katawan ko dahilan para bumagsak ako. I repeated that thrice. I didn't care even if my whole body was literally burning.

I spent two hours in there, trying every equipment I could see. Alam kong kinabukasan ay doon ko palang mararamdaman ang sakit ng katawan. Mas mabuti 'yon para may idadahilan ulit ako para hindi sumama sa kanila.

I took out my airpods and went on this bench by the glass windows. The view was very pretty. Nakikita ko rin mula dito ang malakas na alon ng dagat. Patuloy pa rin ang pagtulo ng pawis ko at nito ko lang naramdaman ang pamamanhid ng mga hita ko. A staff went to me and handed me a towel. Binigyan ko s'ya ng maliit na ngiti atsaka nagpasalamat. She asked me if I wanted anything but I just shook my head.