Birthday Wish || Jungkook x Y/N

1. a tragic wish

"I just wanted to spend your birthday with you. Is it so wrong? You're my husband, Jungkook, and I am just asking for one hour. Why are you yelling immediately when I asked you calmly and nicely. If you don't wanna spend your special day with me then that's okay. But instead of screaming at me you can talk to me and tell me this normally. There's no need to use me as your stress reliever, Jungkook." Your tears blurred your vision but you weren't going to let them fall, not when he was watching you. Maybe he didn't care, but his words hit you more than you wanted to show.

"Tell you normally? You're literally clinging onto me for the past few hours Y/N! You won't let me breathe even for a goddamn minute! I feel suffocated with you constantly nagging me and asking me questions!" His veins were popping when his loud voice echoed in the living room and you unintentionally flinched and shrank down. Why was he suddenly like this? He never acted this way and you didn't know how to react properly. "What do you mean? I literally wished you a 'Happy Birthday', asked if you wanna have something special for dinner and if you have plans for the evening! How is this suffocating? What do you expect me to do then? Ignore you? Pretend that I don't know you?"

"Yes! Yes, God, yes that's exactly what I want! I fucking regret making you fall for me! I regret I made any steps towards you! I wish I could turn back time and never make you my girlfriend! What has gotten into me that time." He chuckled sarcastically and his eyes showed how serious his words were. Your heart clenched seeing him being completely careless with what he was saying. He could be serious, right? He couldn't. Not after all you have been through together. You couldn't imagine your future without him, and there he was, telling straight to your face that he basically regret every little moment you spent together.

Does all those years means nothing you him?

"What?" It was nearly impossible to hear your whimper. You hoped he will take his words back. Maybe he just threw them out without thinking much, right? Maybe it was just a mistake. A misunderstanding. "You don't mean it, right? Please, tell me you don't really want to say that." He shook his head and let out a tired sigh, placing his hands on his hips. "Do I need to repeat myself? I did, so what?" Only your sniffling was heard when your teary eyes were looking at him. "Keep repeating that and maybe it will come true." He scoffed at your words and with his voice full of sarcasm said "I wish I didn't approach you in the past and never courted you." Your voice got stuck in your throat, not being able to utter even a word.

He broke the silence, now calmer and quieter. "Don't call me, I am spending my night with Jimin and Taehyung. Don't want you to spoil my night." Completely ignoring you and the state you were in by his words and actions, Jungkook grabbed his jacket and phone and made his way towards the main doors, banging them close. When he left from your sight you broke down, hiding your face into your hands and sobbing into them. You leaned against the table, not having enough strength to stand on your own. Your head was pounding from the yelling and crying. But your heart hurt more. His words hit it directly, and knowing he didn't regret saying them and was meaning each word made you nearly howl in despair.

Crying louder and louder you moved to the couch, his words constantly repeating into your mind like a broken CD. "I just want you to be happy, Kook. And even if your wish hurts me I want all of them to be granted. But I don't deserve your words and I hope you will understand how wrong they were."

Few hours later, Jungkook

"So I just told her that I wished I haven't made those things in the past that made her fall for me." His drunken words left his mouth messily, but none of the other guys paid much attention to it cause they were also after too many shots to complain about it. He could have told them that he was gonna travel the world on a cow and they would buy him a saddle, no question asked.

"No way you did—" Jimin's words got interrupted by his aggressive hiccups "—did this. You will come back to her tomorrow and will beg her for forgiveness." Another hiccup left his mouth right after finishing his sentence and he grabbed another vodka bottle, taking big gulps directly from it. He wouldn't probably be able to pour himself a shot without spilling the liquid everywhere around. And he wasn't going to waste any drop of this glory alcohol. And, well, even if he wanted to use a glass, he couldn't see it between all those empty bottles and snacks bags.

Jungkook snarled at his friend's words, shaking his head vigorously making his hair fall on his face. He threw his head to push them back but he instantly groaned as his head started spinning and he was feeling the urge to throw up. "There is absolutely no way I am gonna do this. I won't regret anything and I am not gonna beg for anything." Slurpy words left his mouth when he reached his hand towards Jimin and gestured him to hand him the bottle, which he did. He took one big gulp and his face scrunched feeling the burning sensation down his throat. He took another gulp and gasping at the feeling passed the nearly empty bottle to Taehyung.

They continued to talk and drink more till they passed out on the couch at Taehyung's house, the mute TV still playing in the background. They were gonna forget about the things they talked about, but Jungkook's wish will quickly find its way back to his memory. Maybe he thought that his words didn't hold any meaning. After all, they were just words he said out of frustration.

But maybe, just maybe, his words repeated again and again gained enough strength to be granted. Because as they say, repeat it till you believe, and it becomes the truth.

And maybe this time, the birthday wish could be fulfilled. And way faster than anyone could even imagine.