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15 years old Layla
"Be on both sides" huh, what a stupid choice... now I must suffer... lost myself in this abyss...
My chest hurts, like a boulder has been placed on me and it's just crushing me, I am suffocating, it's too much...
"Why did it have to be like that, I thought the plan was final but it changed all gone, my hopes and expectations just crashed"
" This isn't fair" ahh no, there's that one quote 'life is fair, because it is unfair to all'... yes, your suffering is just like the others, a different situation but the same level of pain.
Everyone has their own wars, so I shouldn't share my problems with others, they already have their own, I must do it myself.
But...I can't...I need someone to understand me, save me, please anyone, I'm begging you, I don't care who, just save me...
Not anyone, her, it must be her, I can tell her...one day I will...
A few months later
"I'm sorry..."
The one I wanted to share all my problems with faced something worse, the feeling of losing someone close...
"You can't tell her now...back to being alone"
You are on your own, take care of your own problems! Nobody is gonna understand and even if you told them, would you get the answer YOU want?
My purpose is to make the ones I love happy cuz that makes me happy.
Why can't I get closer to him? Did I make him angry? I love him but I don't know what to do...he is busy and I am lost...
Just don't do anything...
"Shall I end it, if I do 'forced shutdown' would there be a 'restart'?" "Would I get another chance, to change everything, make it better, leave it all behind?" "Shall I just end the game?"
"HEY! what are you thinking about!"
"Oh, white light..."
"There's no second chance, and even if there is you would not remember the progress of this game"
"Yeah, maybe...but I am tired"
"You-"
"Hey, Lil girl!"
"Who?"
"I am your alter ego"
"Oh wow...another discussion buddy"
"Discussion buddy?!, huh, sorry dear but I am on the darkside, I am done with your whining, stop it"
"So, you are like a monster within me?"
"Exactly! And I am here to make a proposal, why don't you let go and fall onto this side? If you do you will not be broken by all these little things, your heart will become ice"
"no pain..."
"Don't listen to it! It's nothing good"
"It's your choice Lil girl"
"My choice...I choose...you. I will fall into the darkside, just stop this pain and suffering"
"You...really want to do this?"
"Yes"
"Good choice Lil girl"
Kokoronashi
YOU ARE READING
The Path Desired
Non-FictionLife should be cherished until the very end... Don't give up... Everything will be fine... The pain will fade... Believe in yourself... Love yourself... all of these words mean nothing when you are at your breaking point, when you can't take it anym...
