The Path Desired

What I want is something I...

Wavering between dark and light

...can't have 

If nobody can save me from drowning in this dark ocean, I'll just freeze it. I won't be saved but I also won't drown.

I will become cold...I'm human too but I can't do this anymore.

...can have 

I think life is like an unlimited ticket, you can use it for experiencing something cool, good, scary, bad, for anything and everything even death. But then you also have a plain black card which is death, it appears empty because you can only read it when your time comes. So if everyone has these two cards why to waste the life ticket to bring your own death, you already have a separate card for it. Just live and try everything you can, it'll take some time to come out from all the sadness but it will all fade away. 

Go to a different place, or country or surround yourself with different people but do it all to change yourself, it's much easier to change yourself than someone else or some circumstance. You are the main character and author of your own story, so pick yourself up and get back to writing, changes are inevitable, but not all changes are bad. The only difference between writing a story and writing your life story is that you don't need to publish it; unless you write a journal that you want someone to read someday.

It will all be okay, stick to your goals, your purpose in life - the purpose YOU created - even if they are small compared to others, all that matters is how big they are for YOU.

"So what do you choose?"

"Oh, white light! I thought you wouldn't tell me anything else"

"I didn't mean it in general, only for that topic"

"oh okay. What I choose?"

"Light or dark? You just thrashed out two different thought processes, so what will it be? "

"Hmm, it will be....light -"

"I see"

"-and dark"

"both why?"

"cuz they can't exist without one other if I focus on the light then I will go blind or less metaphorically I won't ever try to differentiate the wrong from the right. If I focus on the dark I will always hurt and end up hurting others as well. So being both balances out everything, of course, it's not possible to have perfect 50 dark and 50 light but even if I have both that's more than enough. I should know to what extent to go on either side, hopefully."

"huh, never thought you'd get the answer"

"This was the answer you were looking for? then why did you say good?"

"choosing light wasn't totally wrong, it was just incomplete, so like partial marks...hahaha"

"haha very funny" *eye roll*

"Since you have figured it out now, just follow it, be yourself, and never forget, life's a gift that lasts for years"

*white light fades away*

 "Thanks for everything, my dear friend" *eyes close and falls asleep*

~You Lil dummy baby~

The end 

Thank you for reading 😊