women - Basically an inconsistent Diary

Zoning Out

Do you ever just sit there silently while your friends talk away wanting to be part of the conversation but you've been daydreaming for so long that you don't know how? I get that a lot. Like all of my friends have best friends while I'm just tagging along. Eventually they all end up having conversations in pairs with each other and I'm not involved. I begin to daydream about a better life while dismissing my feelings of jealousy. That then turns into something sexual or just a short story or scene. The other day it was a fallen angel sitting under a cherry blossom tree. She's in a beautiful world with beautiful people but she's not happy she doesn't fit in there and she isn't at home there. It feels unreal and unnatural even. I guess that's why I turn to women