My Precious Doll (English Translation)

18

Co-translator : TofaRumman

Chapter 18 First Concerns with the Great Advisor

           Meeting with Kiwi to discuss the job went well. It seemed that the young woman had anticipated that Phat would definitely say yes, so she told her friend to keep the position. When she received an answer, she immediately called the company, and then had Phat come to work the next day, to which he agreed. After talking, the young man prepared to take Ran out to buy snacks like usual, but the young lady invited him to have breakfast together. Phat immediately refused, according to his personality, so Kiwi had to let go, but never wavered to see him later. Phat, therefore, had to accept before asking to go shopping with Ran. After shopping for food, the couple went back to the room to help arrange food on the plate. The atmosphere was different than the morning, because the young man who always used to chatter, had shut his mouth so Phat had to ask...

              "What's wrong?"

              "Nothing."

              The short answer was almost curt and Phat frowned in surprise.

              "Are you sure?"

              "Ugh"

              It's like asking for answers rather than invention to talk. Phat was able to guess what the cause was.

              "If you don't want me to go to work I can deny her. "

              The young man pampered Ran with the thought that he would be lonely. But Ran shook his head.

              "Please go to work, I will be okay."

              "If it's okay, then why are you pouting like that?" Phat asked as he raised his chin to look up. "Are you angry that I talked to that woman? But you are the one who told me to go and talk. "

              Ran protested with a soft voice and shook his head.

              "I'm not angry at you even a bit. I just didn't like the way Kiwi looked at you. It seemed like she wanted you to play along with it."

              "You are thinking of something like that. People when talking must look at each other normally. Don't think too much."

              Phat hurriedly comforted him because he did not want his lover to be distracted. But Ran instead frowned.

              "I saw in the movie that when people help each other, they have to give something in return and then, in some cases, women and men play around with each other. "

              "What have you seen?" Asked the young man in panic. He sighed, “The movie is just a made-up story. It doesn't happen in real life like that. "

              Hearing him say that, the young man hesitated.

              "Sure?"

              "Sure, and I can be sure that aside from Ran, I never liked anyone else."

              His commitment made Ran smile. "Promise?"

              "With my life."

              The young man was adamant. But the little boy in him smiled wider and hugged him. He tightly tucked his face to Phat's chest.

              "I love you."

              "I love you too Ran". Phat answered with a soft voice before kissing his lover’s head. They both sat at the table and ate breakfast together, chatted, played, and helped to get the supplies ready for tomorrow’s event.

              The new company was not in the route of the electric train as it was before. Phat, therefore, had to wake up early to drive to work. His reputation in the organizer industry was at the forefront, but as a new employee, he was still on probation, which the young man himself was glad to be like that. He didn’t like being called a kid. He did not want to be indebted to anyone. When he got a job, he worked hard to prove himself. At first, he returned home on time, but after a week, he began to come back late, and later until it was almost bright several times. It could be said that it was more strenuous than the old company, causing Ran, who had been watching quietly for several days, to become unbearable.

              “Take a little rest?” After watching Phat work for quite late at night, the young man held a coffee cup and asked. Phat shook his head without taking his eyes off the screen.

              “A little more time. You are sleepy, so sleep further.”

              Ran sighed softly when he heard the answer.

              “I can’t sleep if you work like this ”

              Even though he wanted to say that he was worried about Phat who worked so much that he couldn’t sleep but he understood the other way.

              Phat thought that the light from the lamp at the work desk was flowing into his eyes, so he thought to move away. Ran clenched his mouth, furrowed his eyebrows. Both thinking and worrying when Phat thought about him more than himself.

              “Ran wants you to rest”

              The young man blurted out honestly. Phat stopped and glanced at the time on screen. Seeing that it was almost two in the morning, he realized. Wass it so late? The young man asked himself before turning to Ran who was standing and looking at him with concern.

              “I’m sorry. You have little fun working. “

              “Enjoyed it for many nights, too,” Ran said ironically, even though he did not have that kind of intent. “Why do you have to overdo it so much? I think that you work harder than when you were in the old days. “

              Phat got a little silent. Ran might learn more about human life but in the part of the idea, it was still like a little boy so he didn't understand the working system. The young man left the laptop, took a coffee mug, placed it on the table, and pulled the smaller man to hug.

              “I’m sorry to make you worry,” he said in a soft voice, kissing Ran’s forehead faintly and began to explain. “I recently started working at this company. Being a new employee while on probation if one doesn't pass, they won’t hire them. They have to be many times more diligent. “

              “Even though you are the best?”

              Ran asked following his thoughts and looked at him with eyes full of puzzling. He looked so innocent, cute, like a child that one couldn’t help kissing the soft cheeks.

              “I just need to get my job done well. There are still many better people.” Phat said, touching lightly on Ran's brown hair. “The work may be heavy at the moment, but after the probation period, it should be better. Endure a little more loneliness."

              He smiled while gazing at his lover. Ran made a pointed mouth with a hammer.

              “You are nasty.”

              “Just said being alone. Is it dirty?”

              The young man spoke while striking his face to appear innocent. The younger people look at their mouths before hitting the crotch of bulging pants until the older person’s king cobra was not too soft.

              “Here it is,” said the little boy, raising his face until his nose almost collided. “Who said to be patient, I didn't.”

              The scent from his body’s made Phat shake. He wanted to work, but the bottom part wanted to do other things. Since getting a new job, he had been so busy that he barely had time. Let’s not say only about things in bed. When it came to talking to each other the words could be counted too. When they were close to each other like this, their emotions began to smolder. The giant king who had been lonely for a long time, nodded his head indignantly as if he wanted to poke his head out of his pants. The young man pulled Ran into his arms, bent down to kiss. But not yet stamping his lips, Ran’s little hand slid to push on his chin.

              “Have a little concentration”

              The young man warned him as he removed his hand. Phat screamed out softly.

              “Can’t I have a little first?”

              He made a loud noise, but Ran shook his head.

              “No, I had endured for a long time. It must be done, ” said the young man as he touched Phat’s face. “Ran can always wait for you.”   

              That sentence made the young man think. He breathed lightly before pulling his younger hand to kiss.

              “Thank you,” he said softly and pulled Ran to hug him loosely. “After putting everything in place and let’s go on a trip. Where do you want to go? Sea or mountain “

              “If you go, I will too anywhere “

              “No, I have to make up for letting you be lonely for a long time. Tell me where you want to go."

              Phat's face was so serious that Ran could not help laughing.

              “Hurry up or not? You still have to try for another three months. “

              “Things like this have to be planned,” said the young man, pinching his nose seductively. “If you still do not know where to go then try to think about it as homework. Tell me when you decide, do you agree? “

              “Yes”

              Ran, ready to smile, so cute, he had pushed into the cheek again before returning to the job where he left off. Standing and looking at him for a moment, the young man took the coffee cup to wash. Then he grabbed a book and went to bed and read on the sofa. It was almost three in the morning until Phat had finished the work when he saw his lover fall asleep first and then carried him on the bed and laid down to sleep. The brain kept thinking about the work that must be brought to the meeting, pondering for a while until he fell asleep

              With the skills and ideas of Phat, creating excellent work that customers could tell each other, resulting in an uninterrupted flow of work. It created a lot of satisfaction for the company owners. As a result, the probation period from three months shrank to just one month. On the day of filling as the design staff, there was a celebration to accept a new designer. Of course, Path didn’t want to go along with it. He could not refuse at all, had to follow everyone, so he intended to stay for just one hour. It was a common practice to drink and eat, talking for a long time. Nearly two hours had passed and there was no sign of giving up, so he began to look for a way out, referring to his work. Just thinking, he had not yet made a plan, when Kiwi stepped into the pub. Seeing Phat, she immediately approached him.

“Congratulations, Mr. Phat”

              The young woman said with a wide smile, as she handed her a cocktail glass. But Phat shook his head.

              “Thank you, but I have to drive.”

              He really argued and Kiwi lifted her shoulders in a sigh.

              “Excuse me, I forgot,” she said in a clear voice and continued to talk. But when she saw Phat, he looked restless, as if he didn’t want to be at the event, and asked “Is there anything?”

              The disconcerting young man wanted to  say that he wanted to return, but he was scared of bad manners and tried to avoid

              “Well, nothing. I’m just …” He thought of a word that sounded good but didn’t know what to say. Kiwi was aware of it.

“Are you worried about him?”

Phat forced a smile and nodded.

“Yes”

“Then shall we go back? Mr. Anuchit, he does not mind. Right? “

The person she spoke to was the head of design, boss of Phat. The young man made a face like he was embarrassed.

“But”

“Mr. Anuchit is very reasonable and loves his family. Just let him know you have a child waiting, and he’s going to let you go back.” Kiwi said and Phat thought that's right because after working together for a month, Anuchit was reasonable and considerate. Which he was sure that if told, to be honest, the other party would not hold back. The young man decided to walk and tell the boss, Anuchit allowed it. So, he left his colleagues and walked away from work, but had to slow down his footsteps when he heard the call.

“Kindly wait.”

Phat paused, turned around to look, and furrowed his eyebrows as he saw Kiwi following him. Soon she said

“Today, I came by train. I will stick myself to you for a car ride back home. “

The young man stubbornly wanted to say no, but he couldn’t because they stayed in the same condo, plus the other party introduced him to work here. 

“Yes”

He said a short word before walking to the car. Along the way, the young lady kept talking, which was mostly about her work, which Phat could only listen quietly, not say anything, but then Kiwi suddenly asked

“Ran, don’t study?”

Phat was overwhelmed by that question because it seemed to intrude on personal matters. He glanced at the person sitting beside him with frustration, but when he saw the other person waiting for an answer, he had to say.

“Ran’s health is not very good so he had to take a break from studying for a while.”

The emotionless voice clearly showed displeasure, but Kiwi didn’t seem to care.

“What’s wrong with him?”

A young woman, of course, from being curious rather than serious. Phat was trying to figure out a disease that sounded good and didn’t seem contagious, but he couldn’t figure it out.

“Allergy”

Kiwi raised her hand and said, making a shocked face.

“Nong is so skinny and looks pale like a sick person.” Her beautiful eyebrows frowned. “Then is coming to Bangkok going to be good? The weather is bad and there is a lot of toxic smoke. It would be better for him to go back to the provinces. “

Phat still listened even though he wanted to park on the side of the road and ask the young lady to get out of the car. He’s a polite person, but he’s not kind enough to put up with others to accuse his loved ones. Especially with Ran.

“If it was good, his family wouldn’t have sent him to stay with me.”

A harsh voice that had never been used before showed the other party that he was extremely unhappy. This time worked. Kiwi shut up and didn’t say anything until they reached the condo. Instead of driving to park inside the building, Phat turned to park in front of the building. The young woman made a stupid face, not expecting the other person to use this method, but did not dare to show signs of anxiety. After getting out of the car, she turned to smile.

“Thank you.”

The young man nodded his head, unable to accept it, and drove away almost immediately. After entering the park, he still lingered in his car, making sure he wouldn’t find Kiwi in the elevator and then left the car back to his room. When the door was opened, there was a bright sound saying welcoming as usual.

“P'Phat is back already.”

Ran holding a glass of water, walked wide and smiled, and kissed Phat's cheek. Phat returned the kiss.

“How is the office party going?”

The little boy invited him to sit and relax on the sofa. The young man smacked his face.

“Boring”    

Ran raised eyebrows and then laughed.

“So, you don’t talk to anyone, right?” The young man inquired a little more. Phat shook his head.

“They didn’t talk to you.”

“Looks like this, who dares to approach me?” Ran said, smiling while pressing his finger on the corner of his mouth and pushing him up.

“It’s not about being handsome. It comes from being disliked. “

“How do you know that they don't like you?” Asked the youngster, and when the other party didn’t answer, he moved down to sit next to him. "But sometimes people had to have a relationship. In the old place, you can do whatever, but here you are a new employee, you have to smile and greet others first. Otherwise, they wouldn’t dare. “

It was a teaching that surprised Phat quite a bit. While Ran was a doll before and only had a few months to be, he knew how to socialize better than him who was a human since his birth.

“Where do you remember from?”

“Lalin taught me. When Ran went to work at first, I did not act right. I didn’t dare to smile with anyone, so Lalin taught me how to act. ” The young man cleared his throat once, making a serious, dark voice. “Play properly. Smile to create a good impression. Give compliments. She was serious when ordering about it. It is very good teaching."

The gesture was like the headmaster of a wizarding school that the younger people looked like, causing Phat to laugh. He lovingly rocked Ran's round head.

“Acknowledge Professor”

Ran made a face. “Not a little bit."

The young man argued that he had to act on his favorite cartoon. Phat messed up his lover's hair and looked at Ran with his eyes, showing the utmost love and smiling.

“Yes.” He accepted a soft voice before kissing his lover’s head. “Thank you.”

Ran smiled sweetly, knowing well what he meant. The young man leaned wide and held his hand.

“People love to give ideas and encourage each other here. No matter what you do, whether you laugh or cry, you will always have me by your side. “

Ran’s words made the architecture so impressed that he couldn’t speak. He hugged the little man to his chest and said

“I love you”

Only one sentence could represent all the feelings right now. Ran looked up with brown eyes filled with the same feeling.

“I love you too.”

It’s a word that he heard many times and never got bored. Phat kept hugging the lover like that for a while and then asked to take a shower to continue working, which Ran did not fuss about. When Phat opened the notebook, the little boy then went to bed and read a book while watching Phat working until he fell asleep.

The next day, Phat drove to work as usual. But when he arrived at the company, he was surprised when he saw Kiwi sitting cross-legged talking to the coordinator in the sub-meeting room. At first, he wasn’t too interested, thinking she came to greet an acquaintance, but soon realized that the company had a new job and Kiwi was the main presenter. In fact, it had nothing to do with the design department. If they started having trouble starting when the meeting was over, Kiwi went straight to the young man with a happy expression.

“Hello, Mr. Phat”

She said sweetly. Phat turned away from the job and turned to answer in a bad way.

“Yes, hello”

He tried to show signs that he was busy, but it did not seem to work because the woman held her face, looked at a rough sketch of the paper on the table, and asked curiously.

“Is this Kiwi's stage?”

“Your other work has not yet been submitted.”

The answer was short, the tone remained smooth and emotionless. Kiwi, not yet aware of it, smiled sweetly.

“Kiwi, ask for a stage like a princess palace. When you go up, you will be beautiful."

She made a loud noise while moving a little closer to Phat. He sniffed in annoyance but kept his manners.

“Depends on the concept of the work. I can’t design according to myself. “

Phat answered while moving to the chair closer to the desk to get away from the girl and turned back to the sheet to show her that he was busy. This time it worked because Kiwi started to feel conscious.

“Sorry for bothering me. Kiwi was so happy that she forgot. Please Mr. Phat continue working “

The woman said with a fearful and frustrated expression, as the other party did not reply, and didn’t even turn to look at her. Fortunately, the costume party came and invited her to check out the design. So Kiwi said goodbye to Phat and left the room. As soon as she left, the young man lightly sighed, feeling a little overwhelmed knowing that he was going to meet this woman again. Indeed, Phat knew for a long time that Kiwi was interested and tried to befriend him several times which he did not hate or dared to charge her. He was only annoyed when she came in with it. Even when there was Ran as well, he wanted to stay away, or if possible, he'd like to be honest. He already had Ran as his life partner.

That evening, after work, he decided to stop by the department store to buy fresh produce to cook suki with Ran. After finishing the storage, Kiwi came in as soon as possible.

“Did you just finish work?”

She opened the sentence in a sweet voice.

Phat shortly replied, “Yes”

Kiwi pretending to stand tilted back and forth to look cute. But when she saw the other person was not interested and pretended to walk away, she hurriedly spoke.

“Please stick to the car with people”

Hearing this sentence, the young man stopped. The young lady got a chance and went in and clasped her arm and made a pleading sound.

“Kiwi's car is in the garage. It will take several days to finish, and it is difficult to get around, ”she said, then smiled to flirt. “But fortunately, I have come to the job here. Mr. Phat would not mind picking up another passenger. “

It was an extremely awkward compulsion request for Phat. As if closing all the doors and leaving only one exit. Undeniably, the young man had to accept.

“Yes.”

Hearing the answer, the woman almost smiled at the cheeks.

“I’m so glad. Thank you very much.” Her manner could hardly side her joy. Phat could only secretly sigh in extreme frustration. The well-planned plan was ruined. But anyway, it's only today. Let’s try that tomorrow.

“I am so hungry, can we stop by and have something to eat first?”

The voice of a woman destroyed his thoughts. Phat frowned, shook his head.

“I have to go back to eat with Ran”

It was a denial without concern. But Kiwi understood the other way.

“Whew. Can Ran cook as well? So good like this, must find an opportunity to taste his skills.”

Her tone of voice was as enthusiastic as she wanted to go today. The young man raised a displeased expression.

“It’s just basic, nothing much.”

“Just that it is already considered good. City children can’t do this. “

Kiwi followed her thought because she realized that Phat had an aunt and Ran was temporarily sent by parents from the provinces. Which was good, because the young man did not want to talk anymore. He walked stubbornly to cut off the conversation. While driving, he spoke so little that he could almost count words. When he arrived at the condo, he had the young lady go down at the entrance, like the previous night, drove up and parked in the building. It should have ended there, but several days later, Kiwi began to move from asking to get back in a car home to waiting for him to go to work together in the morning. Plus some days she even talked about her unexisting intimacy with Phat in front of Ran, causing Phat to become upset, the awkwardness escalated into frustration. Even when collecting work before sending it to the customer to check, causing him to do overtime, and Kiwi still took him away to eat and reach home late many times.

At first, Ran did not mind because he saw that Phat was tired, but many times there was something else. In the beginning, it was touchy, not talking until Phat had to come later, then he realized that they went to work every day. No matter how much Ran trusted, he couldn’t help but be suspicious. This was partly from fear because Ran realized that he was just a doll, not a human. In addition, there was also the matter of same-sex love, that despite being accepted, society is not very open. The young man thought that Phat was close to Kiwi for this reason, which, if true, he would become a mess.

Impossible! Ran protested that concern. Phat had promised him that they would love and take care of each other forever. That woman was a model and inevitably had to work together for now.

The young man’s chest ached when he thought of his state and Phat. But at what stage?

The question that popped up in his head made Ran so distracted that he had no idea what to do. With so disturbing thoughts that he could not find a way out, the young man decided to call the person he respected and loved after Phat.

“Lalin”, when the other party accepted the call, Ran immediately called. His anxiety-sinking emotions made his voice became hoarse to the end of the line, startled.

"What happened? Why is my voice so hoarse?"

Lalin’s voice was worried. The dam that the young man tried to hold on to and collapsed.

“Lalin”

Ran was crying and sobbing until Lalin wanted to call him out. If right now, all she could do was better convince the other person to ask why he was crying.

"Calm down, take a deep breath." Lalin tried to use the softest voice to make the other person comfortable. Hearing the advice, she asked. "Okay or not?"

“Yes”

Ran replied softly, but still snorted. It gave Lalin great relief because it was probably not a deadly matter.

‘What did Phat do to you?’

Lalin asked the question without obligation. When it’s not a serious matter the only reason why Ran was so upset that he had to call her was the bizarre former designer. The little boy snorted and nodded as if an interlocutor was sitting beside him.

“Yes”

"What did he do?"

Lalin’s voice, as intense as it was ready to listen to Ran, who knew the harassment of the other party well, began to hesitate as if he was not sure whether he should tell her or not until the other of the call had to repeat.

"Ran"

“Phat didn’t do anything to me,” said the young man hurriedly to avoid misunderstanding between Lalin and Phat, thinking that he had been hurt and remained a little silent. “But lately, he comes home late every day. So I … “

"In the past, it was late. I have not seen you say anything."

“Yes, but …” Ran stopped breathing in his lungs as he recalled the image of Kiwi wiggling as he sat in the car of his beloved. “Kiwi sat along too”

The words of the young man made Lalin dizzy for a long time. "Who is Kiwi?" She immediately countered the question, her brain processing from what she listened to. And immediately fell upon hearing the answer

“Phat is working on this model for the work. She is also living in this building."

The whining followed. Lalin said that Ran was thinking a lot. She convinced him to calm down first to make sure that the woman had come into contact with the architecture. As soon as he cooled down, the young man said

“She will come and greet Phat at first every time. When there is an issue, she finds him for help at work. At this time, Phat said that Kiwi was a product model who hired an advertising company at the beginning of the day. She comes home with him in the morning and evening. “

"And what did Phat say?" After listening to the end, Lalin asked a question. Ran shook his head.

“I didn’t see him saying anything.”

"Hey, it’s impossible. I think the Phat himself would want to refuse, but the woman gave her a job so he couldn’t say anything."

Her last sentence surprised the young man. “Did you know?”

“Lalin,” Ran said. Lalin responded and asked in a half-fearful tone. “Phat likes women, right?”

"Why do you think like that?’"Asked Lalin. Ran looked again and confessed his concerns.

“Well, men have to pair with women, aren’t they? In the past, I didn’t agree, but now I’m not sure. “

The voice of the young man softened with a whining. Lalin hurried to comfort.

"Don’t think too much. Most societies may be like that. But love is a matter of the heart and the feeling. It is personal happiness that no one has the right to judge. People if they love each other, regardless of gender, it doesn’t matter."

“But Phat …”

Ran tried to argue with fear of Lalin, so he stopped.

"I told you not to think too much. I have known Phat for a long time, known his habits. Even though he is heavy-mouthed, he doesn’t like to get along with other people, but if he loves someone, he will spend all their heart on it."

“Really?”

"Ran, dear," Lalin cried out in a faint-hearted tone. "In the past, girls in the company flirted with him, Phat kept them at a distance and never cared how beautiful the model was. His eyes never looked at me when I saw him at first. I was still a little shocked. I didn’t think that people like him would know how to love."

She paused so that Ran could think before putting the last sentence.

"The life of Phat has never been like this before. He loves you very much, Ran."

Lalin’s comforting words made Ran very comfortable. The young man inhaled air to restore his confidence before saying.

“Thank you very much.”

"It’s alright," Lalin’s voice expressed relief before leaving. "If Phat makes you cry again, call me. Tell me, so I can touch him and break the neck and poke the fermented fish."

Her taunt made Ran laugh, but then suddenly stopped before speaking.

“I want Phat to go back to his old office.”

‘He will definitely return’

Lalin said in a smooth tone that he could not guess, which Ran thought was just a consolation. The two then had a little more conversation before Lalin asked to go to work. After saying thanks and hanging up, the boy recalled things like Lalin’s comfort and mannerisms and thought that Kiwi was bothering Phat and nothing else. Perhaps he thought as much as Lalin said. People who love each other must trust each other.

That day, Ran was surprised when he saw that Phat went home faster than every time, even buying fresh produce to make Suki as well. Ran wanted to ask, but did not dare at all, but could only prepare things and wait. When Phat finished taking a shower, they both sat together for dinner. They talked happily, with Phat saying that this work was done, and would ask to take a vacation and take a trip. The little boy grinned, embracing him with joy. The suffering that accumulated in the heart was gone. Really like Lalin said Phat loved Ran very much and he loved him very much as well.

Ran tilted his head, rested on Phat’s shoulder, then patted his eyes with a happy heart.

An important person who was both life and breath.