THE GUY WHO'S ALWAYS WITH HIS UMBRELLA | COMPLETED

CHAPTER 42

CHAPTER 42

HRH PRINCE FELIX POV

I DIDN'T THINK of removing my hands off from his body. I stayed those in what position they were currently in, which was hugging this person who makes me feel different emotions in a matter of second.

Hindi niya ako niyakap pabalik, and he didn't do anything aside from standing kaya hindi ko rin alam kung anong ekspresyon ang meron siya. Although I am curious, I think it's better not to see his face for the mean time dahil baka makita ko na naman yung mga matang muntikan nang makapag-palambot sa aking tuhod.

For how many days, I've never seen him reacted that way.

Palagi siyang hambog, palaging mayabang o di kaya walang galang. I've never seen him acted so differently from what I was expecting because all the time, he does things that I already know he can.

But not from the past few days, in fact, not from what happened yesterday. Kahapon nakita ko siyang mahina. Malungkot. And I can see his regrets. Kahapon nakita ko siyang maging desperado. Asking me to stay although I initially thought I can't, lalo na at hindi naman talaga ako ang dahilan kung bakit niya ginagawa ang lahat ng 'to.

And now I saw the mad Tyler which is scarier than I thought.

Nakita ko kung gaano siya natakot na baka mabunyag ang katotohanan tungkol sakanya. Nakita kong takot siyang maaga kong malaman ito that he got mad when I was making a foolish, rushed decision.

He has so many reasons.. so many and it'll be a ton oras na malaman ko kung sino ba talaga siya but I'm not even afraid of it.

He does so much things that made me concerned and plastered as well as confused. He does so much things that actually makes no sense in the first half but it will at the end. It was driving me crazy.

That's why I'm also currently asking myself while I have my arms around his body, why can't I trust him for the mean time? Why can't I wait? Why don't I have that much patience? Why am I rushing things?

Can't I wait a little more longer? Can't I wait for him to reveal it by himself? If I can't, then why? What are my reasons? Do I even have a reason?

Bakit nga ba hindi ko siya mapaniwalaan na gusto niya rin ang mga ginagawa niya? Bakit hindi ko siya mapaniwalaan na lahat ng ginagawa niya ay kagaya ng rason ng sa akin. Which is I'm doing this because I like him. So so much.

Just.. why? Is it because I don't fully know him yet? Is it because he doesn't want to open himself up to me yet? Is it because its a bit quick in my perspective that yesterday he's rejecting me and now, he's backing off in his own original plan?

Kung yan lahat ng mga rason, bakit hindi ko ganon kadaling kalimutan? Why don't I give him a chance to stand for himself and prove that he can?

That he can love me even if he also have done so much things that doesn't sound he'll like me, ever.

Bakit.. bakit hindi ko siya makayanang paniwalaan sa mga oras na 'to? Sa lahat ng sinasabi niya? Does this mean.. all of what he said wasn't true kaya di ko dama? Is that the case for me?

"I'm sorry." otomatikong napahinto ang utak ko kaka-isip nang marinig ko siyang magsalita. "I'm sorry for shouting. I.. lost control of myself."

Malakas akong bumuntong-hininga bago sumagot, still not backing off even if I'm not feeling his arms around me. "It's fine. And I'm fine."

"You.. you've found out what I fear the most don't you?" tanong niya sa akin dahilan para dahan-dahan akong humiwalay sakanya saka marahang hinawakan ang dalawa niyang kamay. "You've found it out." he concluded with my actions.