Neighbors

Chapter 69

A/N: TW: talking of rape
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Y/N POV

It's been a week since Anna tried to force me on her because she was mad. I mean she keeps apologizing and I can tell she's sorry.

I'm not mad anymore I'm just kind of uncomfortable around her sometimes. I know it's bad because she's my wife and I shouldn't be hesitant or a little scared about being intimate,but I am.

I felt so vulnerable. I felt like I was in the wrong. I felt like I was using her.

It made me feel like Brady Rexel.

It's been on my mind for the whole week. I can't eat, can't sleep, I can't even think gay

I have a major case of bed head and my hairs probably matted up in the back. I just feel like complete S-H-I-T. Shit.

I tried to hide the fact that Anna made me feel this way from her. I lied and just told her that it was the fact that we have to move soon and I'm going to get homesick but, that wasn't true.

"Y/N we need to talk" Anna said busting into the garage

I snapped out of my thoughts to find myself in the hood of my jeep. When the hell did I get here?

"I'm busy can it wait" I lied

"No please close the car and sit down. I don't have a lot of time I have a meeting but, I can't wait any longer" she said

I didn't listen and just kept fixing the engine. I wasn't entirely sure was I was fixing so I just untightened and tightened a bolt.

She pushed me out the way and closed the hood and pulled me to the driver's seat and then she climbed into the passengers side

"I heard what you said" she said softly not meeting my gaze

"What are you talking about?"I started twisting my eyebrow, a nervous habit I have.

"Baby please don't lie to me. Are you really that scared of me?" her eyes started to water

She heard me

Flashback
Anna POV

I was cleaning up in our room

"What's up with you dude?" I heard Clark say through the baby monitor

"I don't want to talk about it" I heard my wife say

She had been acting strange but I thought it was because of the move we'd be making in a couple of months

"No talk to me. I'm one of your best friends. Just trust me Y/N/N" I saw him clap her on the back

She just leaned over the crib and watched as Sage started to fall asleep

"You remember what I told you about the other night?"

"Yea..." he said telling her to continue

"Well I feel like I did something wrong. I'm scared. I felt like...I-" she started to get choked up and dropped her head

"I felt like b-brady" she whispered

I gasped and covered my hand over my mouth. A sob left my body. It broke my heart to hear her say

I made her feel like this. I made her feel like the man who raped me. I made her feel like she raped me

End flashback

Y/N POV

"Y-you heard me?" I whispered

She nodded and looked to me as a single tear feel from her eye