TSSS 1: Dancing With Your Ghost

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

I close my eyes and the moment I open it, I'm alone here in the Studio. I guess my mind is playing with me. Again.

I sighed before I decided to do what I was going to do.

Yelling at the sky,

Yumuko ako nang umupo ulit pagkatapos ko inulit ang tugtog. When the lyrics started, half of my body bent and made a turn from in front to the left side together with my right hand. My hand passed by my face before I lift it up and lay on the floor, mabilis ko ito inangat bago umupo ng tuwid.

Screaming at the world,

Mabilis ako gumapang paharap na parang humihingi ng tulong na maibalik siya, tulong kung paano ako makaalis sa sitwasyon na ito bago tinaas ang kamay at humiga habang nakataas pa rin ito. My legs are in a V or M shape as I lay on it.

Baby, why'd you go away? I'm still your girl,

Inayos ko ang pagkakahiga bago humarap pakaliwa at dahan-dahan ginapang ang mga daliri, imagining him beside me, our moments that we spent together. I lifted my right hand and made a circular motion as I sit until I felt a hand hold unto my waist and lifted me up and my head did the same.

With my pink sleeveless flowy dress, I  held onto the skirt of the dress and moved it to the left side and right as my head did the same in a swift move before he put me down.

Holding on too tight,

I slowly walked my fingers from his thin arms to his shoulders.

I can't look at his eyes because I don't want to see what his eyes wanted to say.

Because I can't let him go.

I still can't accept it.

Head up in the clouds,

Mabilis niya hinawakan ang baywang ko habang nakakapit ang isang kamay ko sa kanyang batok bago niya mabilis binaba ang katawan ko sabay nang pag-angat ko ng kanang paa, like what some Princes do to their Princess in a royal ball. He quickly moved my body up and hold my left hand and let it go when I did a quick demi plie and did a Pique Turn.

Heaven only knows, where you are now,

After I did an arabesque, my left leg which is lifted made a circular motion, same goes with my right arm which made me face the back before I bent my body in a slow-motion and lifted my right arm. My left leg did a slide when I turn my body into its normal position. My right leg bent a little before it overtake my left leg and did a side split. Mabilis ko sinara ang palad dahil namamawis bago binuksan ulit.

How do I love? How do I love again?

I quickly close my legs in front of me before I stand with the use of my body. I felt his hand hold my waist again as he leaned his body to mine, bent it, and turned. I did a quick tendu on my left side as our hands are stretching but still holding before he pulled me closer to his chest while I'm turning.

How do I trust? How do I trust again?

Mabilis ko siya tinulak at tumakbo habang may inis at lungkot sa mga mata ngunit agad niya nahawakan ang aking braso papunta sa aking baywang at mabilis inangat. I also quickly raised left leg and it made me turn, dahil sanay na ako sa pag-ikot ay wala na ang hilo sa akin and now he's behind my back, I pushed him without looking at him but he pulled me close.

I stay up all night, tell myself I'm alright,

We slide apart from each other as one of our hands above the head, while the other is below. Mabilis namin yinakap ang sarili ng yumuko bago gumawa ng ikot upang maharap ang isa't isa. Tumayo kami ng tuwid at kasabay no'n ang mabilisang pag-pump ng aming dibdib nang strinetch ang dalawang kamay sa likod pababa.