dream smp X Reader

karl x reader

⚠️mention of suicide,starving,and blood⚠️ I'm sorry if you have a weak stomach. Dont play song till it says.
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You haven't been eating lately and you had been feeling weak from the scars that are permanent on your wrist.

Somethings like these you can't take back,luckily it's only  5 scars.

[At 10 I did 4 scars and I only had 1 person I loved so I put them to together]

Right now you were laying in bed watching your friend Karl's stream,he always made you happy.

"Oh,HELLO Y/N! Welcome to the stream,how are you?"

Y/t/n 4$:after stream we need to talk

"Ok...LOVE YOU!!!"

He got up from his chair and spread his arms and moving them back and forth.

Y/t/n 30$:love you to buddy<3

You got up and went to the bathroom and lifted your shirt SEEING the bandage from the time you took the broken glass and did a big slash.

Karl was there to call a ambulance,he was scared,crying and shaking.

You had never seen him so sad like that,you put your shirt down when you heard your door open,it was karl he probably ended the stream.

"Y/n? You ok?"

You lean out of the bath room so he knows your there and alive

"You ok?,is everything alright?"

He was always worried after the incident with the glass.

'Yeah...well no'

You started tearing up thinking of what he might say about the scars.

"Hey! Dont cry,no no no,its ok just tell me!"

He pulled you in for a hug that was really tight and loveing.

'I did it again'

By that he knew what you ment and placed his head in the crook of your neck.

"Im not mad ok,are they deep?"

'A little yes'

"Let me get some disinfectant and rags"

He left and you sat in the corner of you room,you knew he wasn't mad but it still made you scared.

He came back after 3 minutes

"I couldn't find the thing for 2 minutes but I found them"

He knelt down infront of you and placed his hand infront of you so he can apply the disinfectant so it won't infect.

Your hand was all shaking and shivering.

"Hey...it will hurt ok,but...thats not my fault."

'Wow...'

You pulled your hand back and looked away.

"Give me your hand"

You gave him your hand because sapnap was visiting and was in the living room,and you didn't want him to know.

'I'm sorry'

"Your whispering"

'I'm sorry'

"I know,I know"

'Ow fuck!'

"I told you"

He put the rag on and tied it in a knot,you put your head on his shoulder and closed your eyes.

"Anything else you need to tell me?"

'I haven't... been eating'

"Well...me nether"

'Can we like...go on a date'

You took your head out of his neck to see was kinda red.

"Yes"

[Play song at top now!]

"I'm not angry any more,well sometimes I am,i dont think badly of you...well sometimes I do"

'That's ok'

You both stood up and walked out of the room

"Date?"

'Yeah'

He started running,jumping and yelling in happiness,pretty sure

                   ...Your lucky...

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Sorry for the warnings and stuff