To My Knight in Distress

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To My Knight in Distress

PAGE FIFTEEN

Today, I saw you laugh again for the first time in two years.

These days you look more at ease and happy... as if everything is alright.

I mean, everything is alright, right Sylvester?

Malawak ang ngiti mo habang pinaliligiran ka ng mga bata. Lahat sila ay excited sa mga dala mong regalo pero mukhang mas natuwa sila dahil dumating ka ulit. Hindi ko mapigilang ngumiti nang makita ang masasayang sigaw ng mga bata nang makita ka. Lahat sila ay pilit na inaagaw ang atensyon mo.

You said it's been almost a year since you first visited this orphanage but I'm still surprised how you managed to settle them down. Looking from afar, I can see these children respects and loves you a lot, Sylv.

I thought I already know you well but these past few days I'm seeing a side of you I haven't seen before.

You helped feed the kids and gather them to read a story book after. You look really happy and I should be happy too but why do I feel so lost?

It's definitely not my first time seeing kids but why do I feel like everything is foreign? Why something in my chest hurts whenever I see them smile?

Nagulat ka nang isa sa mga bata ang yumakap sa 'yo at hinalikan ka sa pisngi. Ramdam ko ang saya ng bata at unti-unting nadudurog ang puso ko.

'Salamat po sa pagdating, Tita Silver. I love you po!'

I watched as you smile and hug the boy back. 'Mahal na mahal din kita, Timmy.'

Agad akong umalis at tumungo sa kusina dala ang mga pinggang niligpit ko. I needed that excuse to stay away.

I realized why seeing those kids hurt me so much.

Timmy could have been our son.

You could have been a perfect mother.

But I couldn't protect you both.

The world around me suddenly felt so heavy. Loud distorted noise rings in my ears and I wanted to scream but I can't seem to find a way to do so. It felt suffocating. Something pierces through my skin and I'm getting weaker... as if I'm not weak enough to begin with.

I tried my best to keep standing but I ended up on my knees.