To My Knight in Distress

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To My Knight in Distress

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Our marriage life is memorable... but it isn't always pretty. It was never filled with flowers and sweets, just early morning fights and late night undisclosed arguments.

Huli na bago natin napagtanto na sobrang magkaiba tayo, mula sa mga gusto natin hanggang sa paniniwala. Nakakainis kasi kung anong gusto ko, ayaw mo. At kung anong ayaw ko ay siya namang gusto mo. Minsan hindi ko alam kung nananadya ka na lang talaga para asarin ako.

We never really agreed on anything easily. Inaabot tayo ng siyam-siyam sa pagtatalo at may mga araw na hindi tayo nagkikibuan kasi galit pa rin ako sa 'yo o ikaw itong galit sa 'kin. It's really funny looking back how we both became too sensitive about the things we hated with each other.

'Robin, when did we become so immature?' you asked me one night when we were sitting side by side at our sofa, watching an action movie from a local network.

'Are we?'

'Isn't marriage a part of growing up? Bakit mukhang tumatanda tayong paatras?'

I wanted to say that maybe it's because we didn't love each other in the first place but I kept my mouth shut. Siguro ayoko lang harapin 'yong katotohanan na bahay-bahayan lang 'tong ginagawa natin. Ayokong isipin na kasal lang tayo sa papel.

This is our reality Sylv, it's just a marriage with benefits.

'Hindi pa siguro natin lubusang kilala ang isa't isa,' tanging naisagot ko.

'Halos kalahating taon na tayong kasal, do you still see me as a stranger?' seryoso mong tanong.

Medyo nainis ako noon kasi parang ang unfair ng tanong mo. Magmula nang ikasal tayo, sa 'yo na lang umikot ang mundo ko tapos ito ang maririnig ko?

You see me naked almost every day. How does that make us strangers?

Alam kong biglaan ang mga pangyayari sa buhay natin pero asawa ang turing ko sa 'yo, mahal mo man ako o hindi. Pamilya kita at hindi ka ibang tao, pero nagsimula akong maguluhan.

Sa ating dalawa, ako lang ba ang nag-iisip ng ganito?

Ako lang ba ang naniniwalang panghabang buhay na 'to?

I don't mind being with you for the rest of my life but I started to wonder, do you feel the same?

'Bakit? Do you feel like we're still strangers?'

I still remember how you slowly lift up your head and lightly crinkled your nose, like you always do. 'Minsan. Minsan feeling ko ang layo mo kahit nandito ka lang sa tabi ko. Minsan feeling ko, pinapakisamahan mo lang ako at 'yong mga katarantaduhan ko but I'm trying my best, Rob. I'm really trying to be the person you'll be the most comfortable with.'

I wanted to cry looking at you.

You've changed so much since we first met. I know you're trying. I know you're doing your best but you know what? All I ever want is your happiness... and you. Just you.

'You're my home now, Sylv. You're the most comfortable place on Earth.'

'Despite all the stupid arguments we've had?'

'And all the future stupid arguments we'll have. I'm here for your happiness, Sylv."

You held my hand and kissed the back of my palm. 'For our happiness, Rob. What's mine will always be yours.'

That was the turning point of our maturity. Natuto tayong mag-adjust para sa isa't isa matapos ang usapang 'yon. We became less sensitive and started respecting each other's life choices and preferences. I guess this is what marriage is all about... being the best person we'll ever be, together.

The night was too good to be true, I wish it wouldn't end. We stayed together, cuddling and enjoying each other's company.

We laughed at each other's stories and cried when we started opening up about our past struggles.

Kahit na lumaki tayo mula sa magkaibang mundo, napagtanto kong pare-pareho lang tayong tao. We get affected and hurt by people around us.

It's kind of funny, isn't it? People hurt people.

Pare-pareho lang tayong may staphylococcus sa katawan pero kung makapanakit 'yong ibang tao, parang ang lilinis ng laman.

In this world filled with toxic people, you easily became my favorite homo sapien ('yong iba kasi, hindi na nag-evolve). Kahit na minsan mapang-asar, mabait ka at palangiti. You're sweet and you're good at keeping promises.

We may be weird, stupid and impulsive but one thing is for sure, you're the only paradise I was looking for.

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