Maximoff an Age of Ultron x Reader

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

When you finally get back to the tower you speed off, grab your son and lock yourself in the same place you woke up the previous day. You don't want to deal with anyone so you decided this was the best place to hide.

"I'm sorry I left you buddy. But look, I'm back." You run a hand over his face. "I almost didn't come back but I'm back now."

Someone knocks on the door you don't answer. "Y/n it's Steve please open the door." You say nothing.

Someone else knocks. "Y/n please let us in." Clint. "We know what you're going through. We have all been there at some point in our lives but you can't lock us out. It will only get worse if you isolate yourself. Please let us be there for you." You use your powers to unlock the door, not wanting to leave the spot you are. Clint and Steve rush over to you.

You stare at a spot on the wall not wanting to look at anything else. 'Is Wanda okay?' You sign. Too scared to use words. You think that if you use them the horrors will never stop.

"Yeah she's okay." Steve says as he and Clint sit down on either side of you.

You want to say something but can't bring yourself to. Instead you lean your head on Clint's shoulder. 'Please don't leave me.'

"We won't." Steve tells you, you grab his hand. They both put an arm around your shoulders and you stay like that for a while.

Time skip

Pietro's funeral is today and you couldn't have been more of a mess. You didn't show it though you needed to be strong. You put on your simple black dress and put your hair in a bun. Not many people were going to be there, just you, your son, Wanda, the other avengers and the Bartons. You look rising over in the mirror deciding you look nice and move to get Pietro ready.

You pick your son up and dress him in a simple black onesie because he's too young to wear anything else. You place him in bassinet and give him a sad smile because while he looks adorable you miss his namesake.

You stopped talking again. You wouldn't even talk to Laura or Clint. Whenever you tried to speak you couldn't bring yourself to do it.

You moved in with the avengers. They gave you a nice room in the facility attached to a nursery. That seems to be the only positive in your life right now. They offered for you to join the team if you felt ready so you did. You wanted to be able to do some good. Pietro would have wanted it for you.

You keep thinking back to the moment it happened. You think that if you had been slightly faster you could have used your powers to stop the bullets rather than Pietro having to take the bullets himself. You know that no matter what you did it wouldn't change anything. Just like when you lost your parents. You blamed yourself just like you did with them.

If you had been faster.

If you could remember the word.

You keep blaming yourself for everything that happened. Thinking maybe if you just told your siblings you didn't trust Ultron then he wouldn't have become so powerful. If he didn't become so powerful he wouldn't have built his comet. If he hadn't built his comet you wouldn't have been there to stop it. If you hadn't been there to stop it Pietro wouldn't have died.

It feels like the minute you got him back you lost him again. And this time you lost him forever.

Your thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door. You go over and answer it.

It's Sam.

While you haven't known him for more than a week you have gotten very close to him. He told you about his wingman Riley who he lost and started counseling you to help deal with the grief and PTSD you have.

"Hey kid." He greets

'Hi Sam.'

"You ready to go?"

'No. But when is anyone ready for this?' You walk over to the bassinet and pick up Pietro and grab his bag then go out the door.

Sam walks You to where the rest of the avengers are. Wanda is completely breaking down sobbing in Clint's arms. You keep an emotionless face. You walk outside to the cars that are waiting. Tony had Pietro's car seat already put in for you. You strap him in and sit down next to him. Sam rides in the same car as you and Wanda.

Almost as if you are in a movie, rain starts to pour from the sky. The car ride isn't that long but feels like forever. Once you finally get to the graveyard Sam and wave get out.

Sam comes over to your side of the car and opens the door for you while Wanda grabs Pietro's stroller. You unbuckle the car seat and grab your son then get out of the car under Sam's umbrella. You strap Pietro in his stroller and put the cover on. You take a deep breath before walking over.

You requested the funeral to be a close casket because you wouldn't be able to look at him.

After a while Wanda goes upto say a few words. "Pietro Django Maximoff was my twin brother. He always did his best to protect me and our little sister and if I'm being honest, he did his best to protect everyone. If he set his mind to something it was damn near impossible to change it. He had one of the most kind and caring souls you could ever find. And he went out doing what he always did. Being determined and protecting others. I hope wherever he is, he is still doing that." By the end of her speech you could see mascara running down her face. She sat back down next to you and you hugged her.

You tapped Clint on the shoulder to tell him you were ready. You both get up and head so you can sort of give your speech. The plan is for you to sign it and for Clint to speak out for you because it would be hard for everyone to see your hands.

You take a deep breath and start signing. 'As you guys know I'm y/n m/n Maximoff Pietro's little sister. Pietro was my older brother, my guardian and my best friend. But most importantly he raised me. He took up the role of a father figure after we lost our parents. He always protected me and made me feel safe when with him. He was such a big part of my life that I named my son after him. And he died a 17 year old boy. He spent seven years of his life raising two sisters protecting them. He lived his life protecting us. He was such a good brother no matter what a pain in the ass he was. Sorry for the language captain.' Everyone laughed at that. 'I know it is going to be really hard without him, but I will always have what he taught me and that will help me through this. I know he wouldn't have made his sacrifice if he didn't know that it was for the right reason. If he was here I would punch him in the face for dying but I know he would be happy.' You sign a few more cheesy things and sit back down along with Clint.

You watch as the casket is lowered into the ground. You have a sad smile that finds its way to your lips. Yes you miss your older brother but know he would want you to be happy. So that's what you are going to try to do.

Be happy for him.