Lost - Dreamnotfound

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trigger warning // descriptions of blood and death, as well as derealization (go to the SECOND❗️to skip <3)  

Dream got back to his place, locking the door behind him quietly. He turned around and saw Sapnap looking at him, causing him to jump "Jesus fucking Christ, you scared me-"

"I scared you?" Sapnap laughed a little and crossed his arms "Dude where the hell have you've been? You haven't been here all day"

Dream started to walk past him "Out" he shrugged but Sapnap grabbed his arm to stop his walking

"Dude, don't pull shit like that it scared me"

Dream looked at him confused, refusing to believe anyone cared enough "I thought I pissed you off? Are you just pretending this morning didn't happen? Honestly didn't expect you to be home"

"You don't get rid of me that easily" Sapnap laughed a little "Why'd you storm out and what happened?" he asked, noticing the wounds on his face

Dream shrugged "Nothing happened," he rolled his eyes

Sapnap sighed and let go of his arm "I'm sorry about this morning. Okay?" he offered "I wasn't thinking about what I was saying. We both agreed that there are boundaries when talking about life before this and I crossed it, I'm sorry"

Dream looked at him, taking in the apology "I'm sorry too" he mumbled "You're not one to apologize unless you know you messed up" Dream points out "You must really be sorry"

"It's an apology. Take it or don't dude" Sapnap rolled his eyes

Dream smiled a little, deciding to move on "Is Bad asleep?"

Sapnap nodded "Yeah we need to be quiet, I don't want to wake him up." he said, "Dream what happened to your face?"

"Techno" Dream mumbled, continuing to walk past him and into the kitchen "Techno and this other kid."

"What other kid?" Sapnap asked, following behind and walking around to the cupboard to grab a snack

"I didn't catch his name, I was a little busy if you couldn't tell." Dream gestured towards himself "He was wearing a beanie, and was short" he shrugged

"Ok well, who won?" Sapnap laughed

Dream stopped putting things away and looked at Sapnap, staying quiet

Sapnap just looked at him

"Take a fucking guess, Nick," he said, rolling his eyes but smiling nonetheless to show that he wasn't serious

Sapnap rolled his eyes "Ok. That makes it 1-1 right?" he smiled a little "Look- two versus one. I think you would be a lot more hurt-"

"Oh right" Dream laughed and shook his head "Look man, I appreciate you staying up and everything to make sure I'm okay, but I'm tired"

Sapnap shook his head and nodded "I got it- you're good to go to sleep. Just try not to disappear like that, it stresses me out"

The idea of someone caring wasn't getting through to Dream. He looked at him then nodded, walking past him and going upstairs to sleep the rest of the night.

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❗️ (start)

I opened my eyes to darkness. I sit up and look around. There's nothing. No sound, no smell, no people, no objects. Nothing. Empty.

I stand to my feet and start walking around the empty void. "Hello?" I call. I don't recognize my own voice. I sound.. less alive. If that's even a way to explain it. I walk for a long time, calling out for anyone to hear me. Then, I suddenly approach a mirror. It was still dark and silent besides my footsteps. I walk up to the mirror slowly, reaching out to touch it- until flinching back when I see the reflection

I'm in a suit. A simple black and white suit with a black tie and a red handkerchief in the chest pocket. I look down at myself, then when I look back I jump in fear. I'm... dead. There's blood splattered on my clothes, my dirty blonde hair is messy as if I've been buried alive and my skin is pale. Blood suddenly seeps out of my mouth, dripping to my hands. I look down at my hands and study them, looking over the cuts that would turn into scars later on. I look back at the mirror when I hear another set of footsteps

"You look nice"

"What?" I ask, looking at her in the mirror

"You look nice son" My mother repeated. She put her hands on my shoulders and we both looked at my decomposing corpse in the mirror. 

She was in a black dress that went past her knees, her blonde hair was put into a nice bun and she was wearing black heels. The dress was familiar. "Do you blame yourself?" she asked after a while in a monotone voice 

I look at myself for a while, my heart rate never calming down "What- where-" I start

"Your sisters are waiting for you." My mother cuts me off

"Where?" I ask, confused

My mother runs her hands through my hair, combing through all the knots and picking out all the twigs and dirt "Well where do you think we are?"

"I- I don't-" I look around, past the mirror, behind us, to the side, there's still nothing. Just black.

"Come. We don't want to be late Clay. Your father won't be happy"

"My- My dad's-" I started and looked around when my setting finally changed. I couldn't understand what was happening.

I was suddenly plopped in the middle of an empty street. It looked familiar but I couldn't place it

"Dead?"  My mother finished for me "Now it'll be your turn soon" she said, taking steps back. I watch her, then see my siblings come into view, standing beside my mom. They were also dressed up, watching me stand in the middle of the street

"What-" I start to ask but then cut myself off when I heard a truck approaching quickly. I look to the side, in time to see a semi headed straight towards me

❗️ (end)

Dream's eyes open, sitting up immediately as his chest heaves. He stays like this for maybe a minute before feeling nauseous, getting up and running into the bathroom to puke into the sink. Dream feels tears threatening to spill as he spits into the sink and turns the water on. "What the fuck.." he whispered, splashing his face with cold water as he brings himself back to reality

"Dream?" BadBoyHalo's voice rang through his ears

Dream didn't move, barely registering that someone was watching him

"Dream are you okay?" Bad asked, walking up and softly putting a hand on Dream's shoulder

Dream flinched and moved away from him. That's where his now-deceased mother's hand was not only ten minutes ago

Bad put his hand up in surrender to show he wasn't trying to startle him "I'm sorry"

Dream shook his head, hiding his face in his hands "No- no it's okay"

"Are you okay?" Bad asked, tilting his head at Dream "It's three AM..."

"I'm fine.. just a nightmare. You can go back to sleep, I'm sorry for waking you up" Dream said

Bad stayed quiet for a second "Do you want to talk about it? I'm here whenever you need someone.."

Dream shook his head "No. Go back to sleep"

Bad didn't seem to be bothered by how closed off Dream was being. He simply nodded and exited the bathroom without another word. Dream stayed where he was for a long time. He eventually made his way back to his room, but he couldn't go back to sleep for the rest of the night. He just kept replaying it and replaying it until he felt numb

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