My book of rants,depression,and other horrible stuff

It's hard to explain....

Something occurred with the one I'm with and I just can't take it.....I know I know...he says I he loves me and all...but I'm starting yo think what else has he hidden from me. The night of which had what happened I just couldn't stop thinking about...I was in tears for hours and my dad and mom asked what wrong I just said it was just a bad day at school. Then I got very mad and sent him a ginormous rant on how he made me feel.....he hasn't replied yet but I just want to say I didn't want to say these things at all I was just very hurt that I went and did what I did...