months after that
Nessa pov
Hey, so I'm crying on my bathroom floor right now.... Why you may ask?
It all started with a crush that every girl had on this boy, a boy who was handsome,his perfect smile with those mesmerizing blue eyes and fluffy brown hair. He has abs like omfg.He also had an FBOY appearance.You would think his everything but here's a twist;it all started when my mother made me move to Canada, that day I knew I shouldn't have but as we talked and eventually became best friends and I guess I wanted more,because I was falling in love with him.He had dated a girl named Sasha who let me tell you was my best friend who slept with Hardin my ex who even tried to rape me but anyway, I felt jealous but didn't want to ruin it for them. They eventually broke up.... Hardin came back and tried to hurt me but that boy saved me like he always does. My granny died which made things a whole lot more worse,but he was there so was my friends.Then my mother put me in a sister's home were I was treated very not so good, but he saved me again with my fiends along side him.... This is were you think his prince charming, maybe he is, who knows. We had a very strong bond but I had always wander with it would be like to kiss him, or call him mine or the way he would touch you and hold you when your his and i wished that he was mine.... Then suddenly it was like all my wishes were caming true.
One day he asked me out after we had already slept together even though neither one of us were drunk but we made a rookie mistake, he had a beautiful setup in his backyard and I just couldn't imagine been there with anyone else, when he had asked me to be his girlfriend I felt my whole world evolving.Couple months later we decided to tell our friends and social media and you probably know I would get hate because well of 12 year old girls who are like obsessed with him, but did that stop us from falling in love with each other no,but mainly his sister because I didn't want to ruin our friendship but she was happy thank God....2 months after that we were at the beach and I guess it felt right when I said it.....
Flashback
We were laying on the sand as I layer my head on his chest and his arms wrapped around my waist, we sat in a comfortable silence as we started into the ocean and soaking up the cool breeze and watching the sun go down it was so magical honestly when I broke the silence because I needed to tell how I felt.
Ness:hey bub
J:yes
Ness:I love you *looks at him*
J:*smiles*I love you too baby
They kiss.
That night was the best ever.
Flashback over
Then two months later we were still doing good, living our best life and I had him with me.You know when you think you know someone yet they always seem to surprise you but I should have seen it coming. But what people say is true I guess that all good things must came to an end. If my granny were here she would slap me on the face and tell me pick myself up and be a women. I miss her so much. But how was I so stupid? What is wrong with me? Why am I not good enough? Did I so something in a way that made him do what he did?Even his best friend tried to warn me and wanted me to be careful but I was loyal enough to him making me believe he wouldn't and I trusted him, but I guess he wasn't loyal to me after all. Some of you are probably wandering who or some may already know but he was a wonderful boy may I say who I guess will always have my heart... Josh I still love and hate you
As I said before I'm sitting on my bathroom floor crying, well looking at old pictures of us together.
I felt as if I was been stabbed in the heart and it just kept going deeper and deeper until it couldn't no more.
Why did he do it? I taught he loved me!
Josh why did you cheat on me, after all I did for you..... 💔
Here's another twist, I picked the stick on the floor next me and cried even more as I read the words in bold POSITIVE
I'm pregnant with his child, yay but he cheated on me, so not yay
Well maybe we could still be together because we'll yeah but few hours ago he broke up with me in a text message just before I saw the pictures of him and another girl.
I have no clue what I'm going to do now, if this means Olivia's and mine friendship is still going to be okay. How will my parents act especially my mother.
My life is just a mess.
Well i guess one good thing came out it, I started writing songs again but it's like all meant for him.
My manager and I spoke early after she found out that he cheated and wanted to check up on me, I'm going to be releasing it next week Friday I know not so long from now.
It's called If you loved me
Jaden and I are also working on a song this probably gonna release after Christmas. I have another song which will be released during December.
For now I have to figure out what do, I am pregnant and I can't tell Josh, I'm scared to tell my parents what if they disown me.
Well that's my life so far,i hope yours is better than mine,if not I'm sorry and I love you.
