5 weeks of pregnancy
I woke up with the urge to vomit so I ran towards the bathroom.
I was puking my brains out when I felt someone tying my hair into a ponytail.
After I finished I got up and brushed my teeth than washed my face.
Well this is sure one way to wake in the morning...
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Nikita and I were going grocery shopping.
Niki:maybe there's a reason I'm your head, tied up somewhere;somewhere when we met
Ness:when you were mine, when you were mine
Niki:maybe it's the feeling that you get guilty ovee everything you didddd
Ness:crossing the line
Niki:over the crime
Ness:tell me all the ways, all the ways that they could hurt me
Ness:I want be the same, it won't be the same
Niki:it wouldn't be as easy
Ness:cause what you don't know when my heart goes cold, I hold my demons close
Niki:close
Ness:and I don't let go, know I don't let go...
We continue to sing my song until we got to the supermarket.
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Niki:so you going go tell him or what
Ness:I don't know yet
Niki:well child you better tell him soon because your gaining weight and you wouldn't be able to post full pics of urself
Ness:well I already know that
Niki:wait, what about his sister and your other friends
Ness:oh shit I didn't think of that
Niki:well what you gonna do
Ness:umm, I'll have to figure it out just now
Niki:okay
We walked into the candy isle because I craved sour patch kids
"It's weird you crave this when your pregnant"she says grabbing a packet and handing it to me
Ness:well your not the one pregnant are you
Niki:wow someone's cranky
Ness:I'm just stressed, I didn't plan on having a baby at this age Nikita
Niki:yes I know but we'll get threw this don't worry
Ness:"we"
Niki:yes we I'm not leaving you alone
Ness:aww
Niki:and I don't know how many times I must tell you that she says chuckling, I laugh
Niki:heu you think w-...
I freeze when I see him and another girl well technically it's the same girl he cheated on me with.
Niki:Nessa hello
Niki:did you hear me
I felt someone waving in front of my face I blink and see Nikita looking at me
Niki:you okay
Ness:ye-yeah I'm good
Niki:you sure, because you just zoned out
Ness:I'm pretty sure
Niki:okay
I look and see them heading this way while talking and laughing and holding hands.
I grabbed Nikita's hand and the cart and rushed in the other direction
Niki:and know
Ness:it's him I saw him
Niki:what, wait who? Josh?
Ness:yes 🥺
Niki:okay... Um-lets go pay
Ness:okay
We did self checkout and Nikita was trying to get my mind off of Josh.
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We drove to Chic'fil'la and order *whatever you want*
Nikita and I sat in the car and ate whike we talked
Ness:um so I'm thinking of telling the girls first but like we buy them presents like a t-shirt that says "worlds coolest aunt" or something
Niki:why in the hell didn't I get a t-shirt that said that
I looked at her like she's dumb or something
Ness:because you idiot, it was all rushed with the breakup and everything so I just told you
Niki:well I'm glad you did so I can help you
We hug
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Josh's pov
I know what I did was wrong but I had no choice I mean don't get me wrong I loved Nessa but it's different with Julie.
I met Julie when we went to this party but Nessa didn't go and we were dancing and having fun. I got to know her and she got to know me. When all of sudden it just happened we kissed and one thing lead to another.
The next day I realized we slept together and I told her that this was a mistake
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It was two weeks after that party and Julie and I decided to hung out again, I told her about nessa and she understood that it was a drunken mistake.
We were hunging out as friends only.
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Than we went to her place and you can imagine the rest
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It's been two months and I have come to the conclusion I am not in love with Nessa anymore and I have actually caught feelings for Julie
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I saw tiktok room posted a picture of Julie and I together and realized nessa was probably going to see it soon.
I dumped her in a text message.
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A week's after that my sister stopped talking to me which I understand and the girls hate my guts but they'll eventually get over it. The boys were mad as well but got over it well all except one Jaden. I have no idea why his pissed at me.
I mean he nearly killed me that day when they all found out because he said I shouldn't have done that to a girl like Nessa that she deserves better than an ass hole like me. That I was blind and couldn't see what I lost.
I'm starting to think he likes her.
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Julie and I started dating and I am happy, I think...
It's been like over 3 weeks now and I'm feel like something is wrong or I'm missing something.
I haven't spoken or seen Nessa since that and i saw she released If you love me and I had a feeling it was about me.
It's actually not a bad song I'm proud of her though.
I sometimes stalk her Instagram page but I don't know why I do, I'm with Julie and Nessa was just a girl I dated right?
