BTS Sickfics [Volume 1]

Jungkook: Anorexia and Self-Harm (Part 1)

Requested by milktaeandakookie

(As requested, this story kind of centers around Vminkook)

Namjoon's POV:

Okay. So Jimin has anorexia. Now what?

He told us just now about his eating disorder, and needless to say, we're obviously shocked. Apparently, he's been like this for a couple of months, and because he was scared of our judgement and reaction, he had to be really brave to tell us all this.

He also told us how he'd been visiting a doctor to cure this disease, but he broke down crying because he says that he's gotten a little better, but he's barely halfway there. I comfort him and say that everything will be fine. I wish he can get over this and I'm sure everyone of us will help him.

Get a grip, Jimin!

End of POV

***

Jungkook trembled as he slowly cut his skin with the knife once again.

This boy suffered from both anorexia and self-harm. However, none of his members knew about it. In fact, even their manager didn't know. He was hiding it from everyone because he didn't want anyone to worry. He was also scared of hospitals and doctors, and he didn't want to receive any treatment like how Jimin did. He thought the elder was very brave to do so.

It hurt, but for some reason, at the same time, it felt good. It felt amazing to harm himself and feel the blood rush out and cover his skin. He grinned and chuckled to himself but stopped when he heard Seokjin knocking and calling him for dinner. He pouted a little and went into the bathroom in his bedroom to clean up. He wanted this to continue forever.

Jungkook sniffled and stared at his own reflection in the mirror. He looked disgusting. He felt disgusting. He believed that he was disgusting. He slapped himself, groaned, unlocked the door to his bedroom, and headed downstairs for dinner.

~Two months later~

With great help and support from his members, Jimin was very close from recovery of his anorexia. However, little did Bangtan know, their maknae still suffered a lot from his two sicknesses.

To celebrate, they were having a huge party with different selections of food on the table, which were mostly made by Seokjin and Yoongi, and the rest were takeout. Yoongi, when he had time, had his arm wrapped around Jimin, who was also his boyfriend, and gave him chaste kisses on the lips, which made the younger blush.

Taehyung stared at the cute couple with envy. He wished he could do so too, but without confessing to his crush, how would his wish come true?

Suddenly, the second youngest felt a pang of guilt. If he truly liked Jungkook, then why wouldn't he have the courage to confess to him. He grinned to himself, suddenly determined to attract Jungkook and be together.

Speaking of which, where was Jungkook?

Taehyung noticed Jungkook heading towards the bathroom ten minutes ago, after they finished dinner, but not a single drop of water was heard to signal a shower, so what was Jungkook doing? The other members didn't seem to realize this, but Taehyung was concerned. Suddenly, he heard some sniffling sounds coming from the bathroom, which made him worry even more.

Taehyung excused himself and quickly headed to the bathroom. He knocked on the door but didn't receive a reply. Instead, he heard some splattering sounds. "Jungkookie? I'm coming in," he frowned as he pushed open the unlocked door...

Jungkook was there, kneeling over the toilet, throwing up.

"Jungkook!" Taehyung cried. Jungkook's wave finished as he whipped his head towards Taehyung and looked at his hyung with teary eyes. "I-I'm just sick, hyung," whispered Jungkook. "Just sick? You seem to- wait, let me help you to your bedroom."

And so, Taehyung helped Jungkook back to his own room.

Taehyung felt Jungkook's forehead, but the maknae wasn't burning up or anything, and he didn't seem to be pale either, which was what was supposed to happen when he was throwing up. The second youngest recalled the last time when Jungkook threw up, and he looked green in the face.

"I'm just sick," reassured Jungkook. Taehyung raised a brow. "Just sick?" he repeated. "I don't think so, you're very ill." Jungkook pouted. "Just leave me alone, hyung, I really don't feel well. And-" He paused and looked up at Taehyung with puppy eyes. "Please, please, please, don't tell hyungs. I don't want them to worry. I'll recover tomorrow anyways."

Taehyung sighed. He couldn't resist his crush's puppy eyes, but he was supposed to be confessing to Jungkook, not leaving him sick like this. Plus, something seemed wrong with Jungkook. Whenever the youngest accidentally bumped into something, he would wince like he just poured a hot bowl of soup all over himself, and that was abnormal.

However, Taehyung decided to believe Jungkook, as he was really secretive when it came to being sick. The maknae didn't like worrying anyone about his sicknesses, and so Taehyung decided to leave it.

"Alright, but I'll keep a close eye on you."

***

Jungkook's POV:

I'm disgusting.

I hate myself.

Why do I even exist?

I forgot to work out yesterday, damn it! I am supposed to work out twice every day, but yesterday I completely forgot, and also I consumed 1,009 calories, when I'm supposed to consume only 900 calories!

And then I almost got caught by Taehyungie hyung. I know he's trying to help me, but I'm not worth helping. I'm ugly, I'm disgusting, I'm pathetic, I'm just a wimp!

I couldn't throw up the rest of my food after dinner too because of him. I kind of want him to help me, as he's my crush, but he'll find me disgusting. He's always said that he's straight and I know he's probably homophobic. I will just have to let it be and be a miserable gay person for life.

But I always am miserable.

Even if he is gay, which is 100% impossible, I'm still the stupid fool as I always am.

I grin slightly as blood trickles down my skin. It's so satisfying, and this is the moment when I truly feel happy. I hope Taehyung finds the one he loves, someone who isn't revolting like me.

End of POV

***

~Three days later~

Jungkook was kneeling besides the toilet, urging himself to throw everything up again. This time, he was in the bathroom of his bedroom, so he wouldn't get caught by anyone. However, he was in such a hurry he forgot to lock the bedroom door...

Splattering sounds were heard, and into the toilet went Jungkook's lunch.

Outside in the living room, Taehyung was wondering where he had put his mobile phone. He recalled yesterday, when he went to Jungkook's bedroom to borrow a pen...

Ah, it was probably there.

Taehyung chuckled to himself as he walked towards Jungkook's bedroom. He opened the door and looked around for his phone and finally retrieved it. He frowned to himself when the same splattering sounds three days ago were heard in the bathroom.

He hoped he wasn't hearing things.

Taehyung slowly opened the unlocked bathroom door.