Lost & Found ✔ ~ trixya

Always By Your Side

16 years ago

As Trixie looked around her bedroom, she felt a tear roll down her cheek.

It was all becoming real.
It was all far too soon.
But there was no going back now.

The bags were packed, the house sold, and the pink-haired girl's life packed into boxes and a pink suitcase. All the pictures had been stripped from her pink walls, her Barbie dolls no longer covering the shelves, and her clothes removed from the closet.

She'd never imagined she'd fall so deeply in love with the place, but in truth it wasn't the place she was in love with.

It was Katya.
It had always been Katya.

She was just too much of a cowardly fool to admit it. And now she had wasted away her chance to be with the biker with the dazzling smile.

God, she'd miss that smile.

Of course she knew that her leaving wouldn't change how she felt. Trixie knew she would always belong to the girl with the red lipstick and messily applied black eyeshadow. The girl with fishnets and long curly black hair. The girl with the wheezy laugh and infectious demeanor.

Through the push and the pull she'd still belong to Katya, she knew she would. They could be on opposite ends of the world and they'd still be connected, Trixie was sure of it, because Trixie's heart remained with Katya.

"Trixie!" She heard her mom's voice call from downstairs.

Trixie glanced out at the ocean glittering in the far distance. It reminded her of the biker's ocean blue eyes. In Katya's eyes she had seen her future, and it was a future she had wanted to stay in. No matter if it was a future of unrequited love, she'd want to stay in that future. Any future with Katya in it was one she'd want to stay in. But that future was being ripped away from underneath her feet, and she had no say in the matter.

"Trixie, sweetheart, we have to go." Her mom said, a bit out of breath after rushing upstairs to see what was taking her daughter so long.

"I'm sorry, I was just saying goodbye." Trixie replied as she put on her tiny backpack and grabbed her suitcase.

"It was a nice place to live, I'm sure we'll all miss it." Her mom said with a warm smile. "But LA will be great too, right?"

"Of course it will, mom. I'm just being overly emotional." The pink-haired girl said, forcing a small smile and holding back her tears, knowing very well that LA could never match up to what she was leaving behind.

Still she said nothing, instead she happily followed her mom to the car, put her pink suitcase in the trunk and took her seat. As they drove away Trixie's eyes were glued to the window, watching what they were leaving behind.

The beautiful landscape that was quickly disappearing from view brought a tear, and she could only hope that she'd someday meet Katya again. Their golden days had gone away, only remaining on the pages of Trixie's diary, along with the hope that they'd eventually end up together. She'd always thought they could've had it all, even if it was a childish idea, but now she knew life wasn't a fairytale.

Circumstance comes in the way, and life pulls you in a different direction, and all you can do is hope that it will eventually lead you back home.

But for now she felt lost, lost without the one person who had never failed to make her feel comfortable.
Lost in a world without her knight on a shining motorcycle.
Lost in a new city without Katya.

Her mom was right, Trixie would eventually realize; LA was great.
But it would never be what Trixie wished for.

It couldn't be.

Not as long as Katya wasn't there.