A Stranger To Him

Sixty-three, A much needed explanation

Four months later
Caine Williams

It's been four months since I saw her for the last time. It's been four months since I could admire her gorgeous face and a happy smile. It's been four months since I could kiss her warm lips. It's been four months since I could call her mine.

Over time, you forget small things about someone. Sure, you know what they looked like, but the small things and details are the things you don't remember at first. You slowly forget them without even realizing it yourself. You realize you forgot those things when you look at someone again and notice them.

I've tried not to forget any detail of her beautiful face, but I can't help it. I don't remember how her eyes look when they look up at me. I don't remember the small spots of brown in her grey eyes. I can only hate my mind for forgetting her slowly.

I've been in town for two days, and ever since I came back, I've been trying to fight the urge to see her. I'm only here for my mother's birthday and to see my friends, but I can't help but wonder what she looks like right now.

If she's happy right now.

The boys kept their words when they promised me they would give me updates on her, but I feel the strong urge to see it for myself. I want to see the look on her face and the smile on her face, but only from a distance.

I know it would mentally hurt her even more if she saw me in person. It would fuck with her even more, and that's the last thing I want for her to happen.

I have no clue if she's mad with me or not. I have no clue what she feels whenever she hears my name. I have no clue how bad I might have hurt her with my decision.

I walk through the park to clear my mind. I hope it will calm my worries and thoughts, but so far it hasn't helped. My mind keeps wandering to her for the millionth time, and I can't help it. She has been stuck in my mind ever since I first saw her, and even now after I fucking left her, she's still in my mind.

I can't believe how much dominance she has in my life, but I love it. I would do anything to keep her happy, and her happiness is the only thing I care about.

It's the only thing that is important to me.

I walk around again, looking at some happy couples sitting in the grass and having a picnic in the nice summer weather. I can only wish that things would've gone differently and that I would be sitting there in the grass with Amelia by my side. I would feed her strawberries and grapes as I know how much she loves fruit. I would kiss her softly and taste the divine flavor of her soft lips. I would have peace in my heart, and I wouldn't have become the storm I am now.

"I didn't know you were back in town. You could have let me know, you know? I might be Mia's best friend, but I'm also a friend of yours." I look up to see Emily standing in front of me.

She doesn't look mad at me, just surprised to see me here. I smirk softly as I nod before I answer her. I have no clue how she took it when she found that I left, but she doesn't seem extremely mad right now.

"Yeah, I'm mostly back for my mother's birthday. Her wish was to spend it with the family. I got here two days ago, but I thought Ryan mentioned it to you. I saw him the day I got here." I say, looking questioningly at her. She shrugs her shoulders and runs her hand through her blonde hair.