My Only Sunshine

Chapter 26

Trigger warning: smutty smut

Johnny walked into the dorm, dropping his bag by the door.

"Oh my god that choreo took forever to learn!" He grunted, slipping his shoes off. When he was met with silence he furrowed his brow, slipping off his coat and hanging it by the door.

"Dani? Jaehyun?" He stepped into the common room, eyes going wide when he saw the candles flickering on the ground, creating a pathway to his room. At the start of the pathway was a stool with a bouquet of yellow roses and a card leaning against it that read "Johnny"

He picked up the card, laughing at the first thing he saw inside it.

"They were out of Sunflowers sorry."

He didn't mind, roses were romantic and the yellow reminded him of Dani, it was a wonderful gift.
 

I tried writing some lyrics or a romantic poem but nothing really sounded right. I couldn't find the words to express how much I care for you.

To put it simply, words can't sum up the amount of love I have for you and Dani. When you were taken from me it felt like my heart shattered and when Dani was... well that's still too painful for me to think about. 

When I first found out you had a daughter I honestly resented her. I know it's selfish but I was angry that she'd taken you from me. Then when I saw you with her I fell in love with you all over again. I wanted to be a part of your family so much it hurt. 

I still can't believe it sometimes. Sometimes I think I might be dreaming and have to pinch myself to prove it's real. I know I have a lot of shortcomings and still you chose to love me and I want you to know how much that means to me.

I hope this letter helps you to understand how deeply I care for both of you. These words mean so much more than what they are so I hope you fully understand when I say this.

I love you.

Yours forever, Jaehyun

PS Dani, Taeyong and Haechan are having a sleepover on the 10th floor. Come to your room.

Johnny wiped away the tears threatening to escape. He walked to his room, opening the door. Johnny wasn't surprised to see Jaehyun waiting for him, a nervous smile on his lips wearing only his briefs.

"I love you too." Johnny smiled, walking up to him, pulling him into a gentle kiss. "But you didn't have to go this far just to get me in bed." He laughed

"Bed? I think I earned a little more than that, no?" Jaehyun chuckled, kissing him again. Jaehyun's lips were so perfect. Johnny also laughed but lowered himself onto his knees in front of Jaehyun, who ran his fingers through Johnny's hair.

"Something like this?" Johnny asked, pulling his briefs down. Johnny swallowed a nervous lump in his throat when Jaehyun's cock spring free. He knew Jaehyun was big but he'd never seen him hard before and didn't expect it to be so intimidating. It wasn't as big of a deal to him as it was for Jaehyun and Johnny couldn't help but wonder if Jaehyun was really ready for this.

Jaehyun grabbed a bottle of lube he prepared and squeezed some into Johnny's hands. He wrapped his hands around Jaehyun, coating him with the lube, looking up at him for affirmation. Jaehyun's face was flushed pink and he averted his eyes.

"What's wrong?" Johnny asked "Did you change your mind?"

"No. I want to, it's just that… It's embarrassing. I told you before I'm a little self conscious of… of…" Jaehyun looked back down at Johnny who let out a chuckle