Sometimes i just fade.
Not on drugs none of that hardcore shit.
I'm talking about mentally.
It's like i'm here but i'm not here.
I hate it so much because when i come down from fading, i don't even know what the hell I was thinking about.
There has been so much thought about the issues that i have and i know i got a lot of them.
It's like it's so much and so draining, i don't even wanna figure it out.
I have been thinking a lot about commuting suitcase😍
I'm this close 🤏🏽
And it has been 7 years since i've really thought so bad that wanted to do it.
But then again i don't got the balls and dick to do it. I definitely have been thinking about cutting myself.
But i don't like pain lol
Before anyone says anything, i already have a therapist and i've been with her for a year now.
It just sucks that abuse and has to fuck with my mental health.
I hate how shitty my mind is. i hate how i think. i just hate my mind so much lol
But i'm still here though.
Existing.
For 17 years i've never once liked living in this stupid shitty mf world
it drives me crazy.
I wanna shut my shitty brain off so bad.
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Short Storyyou dont have to really read it lmao. this is just random and fun to just do whatever I feel like🤷🏾♀️. Whenever I'm in the mood btw I also think that you can say that this is like a diary.
