Chasing our Forever (Iloilo City Series #1)

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2 months have passed, I know I'm still hurting, pero I'm trying my best to be brave, the past few months, I focused more on school, I deactivated all of my social media accounts para hindi ako ma tempt na tignan ang account ni Tadahiro kasi alam ko, after all that has happened, I still love him

"Cel! Sama ka mamaya? Opening lights daw ng CPU, last week yung San Agustin diba tapos hindi tayo naka punta kasi super busy sa school. Ano, sama ka?" tanong ni Angelo sa akin, Angelo is a friend of mine here at St. Paul, classmate ko simula first year

I wanted to decline, pero I guess I also need to hang out, "Sure, I'll bring my car with me" sabi ko sa kanila and they nodded, Angelo will also bring his car, si Lea naman sasabay nalang sa akin

My day went normal, we had lectures and quizzes, swerte namin kasi early natapos ang last period namin kaya magkakaroon kami ng enough time to change, 7pm pa naman ang start ng program sa CPU and 4pm palang as of the moment

I wore a plain white fitted shirt and paired it with my black high waist pants and rubber shoes, I applied a little bit of make up para hindi ako maputla tignan, I texted Lea na susunduin ko nalang siya sa bahay nila, Angelo was already at CPU, nauuna siya to reserve us a parking space

"Hay nako ang sarap talaga sa feeling pag may free time! We should enjoy ha! Kasi Bukas another toxic day naman sa duty", Lea said while munching her french fries

Nakapag park na ako ng sasakyan at naisipan namin gumala sa half moon nila, we all agreed na huwag na mag rides since takot kaming tatlo sa rides

There were a lot of food stalls malapit sa gate nila, Lea was complaining na nagugutom daw siya kaya I told them na ako na ang bibili, Angelo went with me though, Valerie and Lea stayed behind, Valerie is also our classmate and kasama sa circle of friends namin

"Bili muna ako milktea" I informed Angelo, he nodded at sinamahan ako

"Oh, andito ka pala"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko, halos manginig ang buong katawan ko sa boses na narinig ko, I know it is possible for us to see each other since this is their school, pero this is too early for us to bump into each other

Lumingon ako at tinaasan siya ng kilay, "Well, hello there, Shontelle"

She smirked at me, "Ang kapal din naman ng mukha mo para pumunta dito"

Natawa naman ako, "Excuse me? Bakit? Pagkaka alam ko, you don't own the school. And this event is open to public, so of course I would be here", lalapitan ko sana siya pero biglang hinawakan ni Angelo ang kamay ko, I looked at him and he shooked his head, I sighed, tama siya, I shouldn't be wasting my time sa babaeng 'to

We walked pass by her, "Oh, looks like you found a new boyfriend, that's nice. Hindi ka na mag hahabol sa boyfriend ko"

I stopped, boyfriend? They're together now? Tangina, nag luksa ba siya sa pagkakamatay ng anak namin? He still has the audacity to choose the person who killed his own flesh and blood

"Let's go" Angelo whispered at naglakad na kami pabalik ng half moon

Binigay ni Angelo ang pagkain kila Lea and Valerie, "Ano nangyare diyan?" Valerie whispered, Angelo stayed quiet pero mukhang na gets naman nila kaagad, they both went to me and hugged me, "You'll be fine, Cel. Time heals okay? One step at a time" Lea said, I nodded and hugged her tight

The four of us were enjoying our time, taking pictures sa mga lights and buying food sa mga booths, I was about to walk towards them when I felt someone grabbed my hand

"Celestine, let's talk"

I tried my very best not to cry, hinarap ko siya at binawi ang kamay ko, "Wala na tayo dapat pag usapan pa, Tadahiro. We're over. We've broken up"

"Cel please" he said, begging, "The dare, oo inaamin ko 'yon. But I fell in love with you Celestine. Believe me when I say that I love you. Give me one more chance. Ayokong mawala ka. Patawarin mo ako, please"

"And then what? Loose myself? Nawala na sa akin ang anak ko, ayaw ko na pati sarili ko mawala na din. I don't want to loose myself, Tadahiro. Masaya na ako, and it looks like you're happy as well"

I gasped when I saw him kneeling, tumingala ako to stop my tears from falling, I could hear him crying, "Cel please. Ayaw ko na mawala ka. Please, don't leave me. Please" he said

"Stand up"

"No! Not unless you forgive me"

"Tadahiro kahit lumuhod ka sa asin, I will never forgive you. I warned you a lot of times, you didn't listen. I won't even bother explain to you what happened that day kasi I am more than sure na mas paniniwalaan mo ang best friend mo, instead of me. Kaya please lang, huwag na tayo mag lokohan dito. Let me go"

"Celestine" Angelo grabbed my hand, "Halika na"

Tadahiro grabbed Angelo's shoulder, "Nag uusap pa kami" he said, glaring at Angelo pero Angelo gave him a smirk, "Sa pagkaka alam ko, she doesn't want to talk to you"

"Cel" Tadahiro called me, halata ang pagod at sakit sa boses niya, as much as I want to hug him and tell him I love him, I can't, what happened 2 months ago was so painful that it even makes me pissed just by looking at him

"Tadahiro, we are done. Wala na. Tapos na. Tinatapos ko na. Okay, let us say you do love me, pero your love for me was not enough Tadahiro, you know why? Kasi you never listen to me, to my explanation. Hindi mo inaalam ang totoo bago ka mag conclude. Your best friend is important to you, mas importante pa ang best friend mo kesa sa akin. Kaya please lang, spare me. I want to be happy, Tadahiro. For the sake of my baby, my dead baby. Let me be happy kahit isang beses lang, kasi everything is still painful for me. I hope this will be the last time I see you. Good bye, Tadahiro"

Tumalikod ako at nag lakad palayo, I could feel my tears falling from my eyes pero hinayaan ko lang na tumulo 'yon, I felt something heavy being lifted from my chest

Anak, wherever you may be, please guide mommy, guide me to a better path

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