Amnesia

Trust

you pressed your lips together as the mercy in you knifes the middle of your heart... you loved him... how can you leave him- a tear escaped your eye while he kept crying between your arms. you start to think wisely... he kidnapped you, took away your memory, lied to you, drugged you and... no... these are enough for you to decide.

you raise your hand with the pen, getting ready to stick it right through his back. and while he was suffering you can take the keys from the table and escape. your plan would work. you were sure. just- do it... you twitched a little while holding your breath. but- you... you cannot... your love... is too much...

you slowly put the tip of pen on his back. making him confused what's happening. but before he can assume anything you called him;

"hyunjin..."
you said having a cracked voice because of the mixed feelings... anger, disappointment, failure and after all... unstoppable love... he hummed in response. he wasn't scared... at all... he trusted you and after all he loved you, he left himself to you. left himself to love.

"i... i want you to listen to me carefully... please..."
you said and he tried to raise his head from your chest but you kept him there. you had no power to say these thing towards his face. the face reminded your memories...

"i'm scared hyunjin... i'm scared of you. i'm scared of your love. i'm scared of my love. i'm scared of our love..."
you stopped for a second to take a breath. now it was too late to change your mind. you've chosen your path. with him...

"you know i'm an intelligent person... i can sense what's right and wrong or what's has to be done. and i know i should've sticked this pen on your back, escaping from this toxic love. but- my heart- it cannot- i cannot stop my love... please... help... help me..."
you said now dropping the pen of your hand with your arm. now you were the one breaking down. between his arms. he stopped crying as he heard your words. he knew he caused this. a sudden wave of regret hit his whole body. making his ear almost blow up with regret sounds inside of his mind. he pressed your body on his.

"y/n... i'm- i... i promis- no... i swear on my love for you, i'll be your dream partner, i know i can do it. i know you can teach me. please-"
he said stroking your hair under his shaking hand. you shook your head in disagreement. it wasn't what you want.

"no... you cannot be my dream partner"
you answered him as he widened his eyes in fear. were you going to leave him? how could he breath without you? his thoughts got interrupted with your words once again.

"you don't deserve me... the only thing you deserve is a doctor..."
then he understood. you've made your choice. you've always had a strong urge to choose what's right. he knew it... he knew how strong you  can be... but no... he didn't want to escape... he was tired...

"you need help... professional help..."
you said and he just nodded in your arms. he already achieved it. your love... even you were leaving him- you loved him... the real him...

"but... i'll be here hyunjin... i wanna trust you, love you, be with you... have our own family. all this time i thought i had you deep in my heart. but no. you don't only have my heart. my body- soul... is breathing with you... i- cannot resist my love"
he just listened, lost himself. he couldn't feel his body. it was numb from the euphoria, the air full with lust. for the first time. he didn't plan. he wanted you, no matter time, place, situation... he wanted you...

"y/n... i know it's not the deal but... i'm sorry. i'll leave everything."
he said now you both crying between each other's arms. you pulled out to his face. you knew he would do anything to love you the way you wanted, the way you deserved.

"let's talk everything from the beginning, okay?"
you said cupping his face between your hands. he nodded while his tears landed on your hands, warming it.

and this is how his story of healing started...

~1 year the healing progress~

"YAH! I SAID I DON'T WANNA SWIM"
you yelled between his arms but he didn't stop, he kept running with you towards the beach. both laughing with each other's warmth.

"PLEASE! I WILL BE ROCK AND YOU'LL BE MERMAID!"
he yelled back making you laugh at his goofiness. as he ran into the sea you squinted your eyes but he suddenly stopped. you slowly open your eyes to see what's wrong, only to see him. facing you with worried eyes.

"do you really want me to stop? should i stop? i can stop. should i put you on ground? is it hot? should i put you back on bench-"
he was worried. you saw it. after those days with hurting you and one year of his healing progress, he really got way more listener and thoughtful. you loved it. you loved his effort. you trusted him. then you interrupted his words, pulling his face while holding his neck and pecking his lips. leaving him dumbfounded.

"i trust you"
you said and his eyes suddenly started to twitch. he quickly broke the eye contact as he buried his face into your neck. you felt his tears. the warmth made you realise how precious he is...

"thank... you..."

~5 years in healing progress~

"HWANG HYUNJIN! AGHHH!"
you screamed your lungs out as if you were dying. you heard his quick footsteps to the kitchen as soon as he heard your voice. looking worried as he made his way to you. looking around to see if something was wrong.

"i think i'm seeing hallucinations babe. we should go to doctor"
you said placing a sarcastic smiley your face since he didn't do the dishes from yesterday. looking at his dumbfounded face, you could've said he didn't understand what were you talking about.

"i am sure that you did the dishes but i am seeing dishes here. something is wrong with my eye-"
you wanted to keep complaining but he now understood and pulled you closer from your waist. placing a kiss on your neck, causing you to giggle in tickles. even you had tickles or not, his lip's warmth always made you go on cloud.

"ya- yah- hyun- ji- oh my... your lips..."
you felt his lips move, assuming he was smirking at your reaction. he knew his effect on you, obviously.

"yes babygirl? do you need something?"
he said pulling out from the kiss, leaving you cold without his lips. he knew how to tease, he was a pro about this topic. but so you were...

"yea i have something to tell, you're not having any skinship for a month. now go away i need to do dishes."
you said snapping back at his tease. you knew this would take a reaction from him quickly.

"oh okay, thanks"
he said, making you stop your work and trying to understand what just happened. did he just- rejected-

you were already ready to lose your hope but then your neck met with his lips once again. but this time with lust. with wetness. he placed open mouth kisses all over your neck and shoulders as he came behind you. hugging your waist from back while he kept sucking your love through his lips. having you all on clouds...

and then you felt him pull one millimetre away from your warmth, whispering his love to you, just to be followed by yours...
everything you both needed to hear for the rest of your life...

"i trust you"
"i trust you"