Only a matter of time

Not everything can be fixed

                                YOUR POV
Things have gotten even more hectic since Natalia and I have been helping Wanda try to figure out if we can have children. Wanda is Nat's maid of honor but since she's been helping us with other things Laura and Pepper have been chipping in more on the wedding details. I decided to make Steve my best man so he's helping the girls as well because he knows what he needs to do and is always determined to do things right. He's also the best at speech's and I need him with me on my wedding day in case I panic. "Tell the ice man that the ice sculpture needs to be big enough to be on display." I told Steve over the phone. "He says he doesn't know if he can do it that big." Steve informed me. "Well what's the biggest he can do?" I sighed in disappointment. "5 feet." He said hesitantly. "Either find a better ice man and if you can't find me someone better then tell him that's fine." I said. "Ok. Also Pepper said the florist wants to know if you want the same pattern for each bouquet?" He questioned. I made my way into the lab where Wanda and Nat were so we would have space to work. "Yes. They have to be evenly distributed with the red and white." I said strictly. If they weren't evenly made it was going to look horrible. "I'll make sure to let Pepper know. Bye Y/n, let me know if there's anything else I can do." He stated softly. "I will. Thanks Steve." Hanging up my phone and looking at Wanda who was concentrating really hard and Nat who just looked concerned. "Have either of you had lunch yet?" I asked while placing a kiss on Wandas head and one on Nat's lips. I lingered a little longer around Nat's lips which caused her to slightly groan. "No we haven't." Natalia responded. "I'll go get us something?" I suggested. "How about I go instead?" Nat argued. I put my hands on my hips and just looked at her with a frown. "Why won't you let me go get us lunch?" Giving her a questioning look. "I don't care what we get just as long as we get something." Wanda chimed in which made me laugh. "You've done so much already so let me do this." Natasha pleaded while wrapping her arms around my waist while looking up at me. "Fine." I gave in which just made Natasha's face light up. "Can we get Chinese?" Wanda asked taking her eyes away from the books for the first time. "Please?" I pouted like a puppy to Nat. She just rolled her eyes before nodding her head. "I already know what you both like so I'll be back in 20." Giving me a quick peck before walking away. "How are we looking Wanda?" Trying not to sound too eager in case it wasn't looking to good. "Do you want honesty or going off a theory?" Wanda sighed heavily. "Just say it Wanda." I begged. "I can undo Natasha's hysterectomy but there's nothing I can do for you." She stated sympathetically. I couldn't help but feel disappointed by what she said but at the same time I already knew this. "It's ok Wanda." I responded giving her a genuine smile. "I can try but I doubt it will work. And the risk of Nat dying during pregnancy is very high." Wanda informed me. "Does Nat know all of this?" Throwing my head in my hands. "No. I didn't have the heart to tell her. I know you want whats best for her but if she wants to do this it's a risk she's willing to take." Wanda said in defeat. I couldn't bare the thought of losing Natalia and it not being her choice of what she wanted. I didn't want to pressure her into doing any of this because in reality we could always adopt. "You know I've dreamed of our future together. We would move away and get a cat and maybe a dog I don't know Nat really isn't into dogs. But definitely getting the cat." I laughed lightly which caused Wanda to laugh with me. I knew she was watching me very intently but I didn't mind. "We would name the cat Liho and then in our 4th year of marriage we would have a little girl. She would have strawberry blonde hair and these beautiful greens eyes just like Tasha. And she would have her smile and of course her sarcasm." I rambled on not giving a fuck in the slightest if anyone else heard me. "But most of all I would have the family I've always dreamed of. I've lived so many lifetimes that I didn't even get the chance to live for myself. And now the main reason I'm still living is all because of a red head with the most beautiful emerald eyes decided she was almost going to die in 2012." I smiled to myself just remembering the first time I ever laid eyes on Natalia. I thought she was the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen. "You really are in love with her." Wanda said in awe. "I am so in love with her that I couldn't even break our bond even if I wanted too." I confessed while meeting Wandas eyes for the first time. She just looked at me with sincerity and sympathy. I noticed I was crying when I felt something wet hit my hand. I quickly wiped away my tears before turning back to Wanda. "I'll be the one to tell her. I doubt she'll be overly upset but it's better if she hears it from me." Sending Wanda a smile. "I'll keep looking in case I missed anything." Wanda blurted out. I just have her a thankful nod before taking a coin out of my pocket it and twirling it between my fingers as a distraction.