Clear | Sirius Black

Forty-Five

It's not that I don't want kids, I'm just scared of what they will do

Late August

The warm months were turning a bit colder as time went on. Euphemia and Fleamont had passed a few days after Regulus' graduation. The funeral was small and in they were buried in a nice graveyard by a creek.

James was crushed seeing his parents pass on to the next life. It seemed as if there was never going to be enough time for any of us with our parents. Orion wasn't getting any better as time went on. Walburga and I met in private thinking the other has poisoned him. It turns out he was really sick and slowly dying.

It dawned on me a few days after Orion's passing in July that Sirius and I's kids would only grow up with Walburga as a grandparent. Sirius raved about how she wouldn't be in their lives, but I said give her a chance with them. He finally agreed after I talked him into it.

Now, I looked in the mirror as I waited for the test to say if my thoughts were true or not. Regulus was on the other side of the bathroom door waiting for me, as Remus and Sirius were with James helping him and Lily move things around in Potter Manor.

He was confused, but as I told him my problem he went to the nearest muggle store to get me a test. As I took the test I called through the door what I wanted him to owl Beth. She was staying about a town down at the house her parents gifted her and Kade. He was staying back at Sirius and I's old flat back in London.

Regulus had talked back to me when I asked him to write the same thing and owl his mother. Walburga wasn't the first person who came to thought when it came to the matter, but she was the only living mother in the group. She would be the one who would know what to do.

I closed by eyes and turned the test over. The air in my lungs and the air beneath my feet left like they were taken away from me as I read the word "Positive." I dropped the test on the floor and slid down on the wall.

Regulus must have heard me drop the test, because he came rushing into the bathroom. His eyes found me and ran over towards me. He didn't have to look at the test to know the answer. I was having a child.

He sat beside me and pulled me into his arms as I silently let the tears fall down my face. This should have been a happy moment, but how could it when there was a war going on and a wizard who wanted any blood wizard and dark witch on his side. It didn't help that if I had a son, he would be a dark wizard.

I felt another tear fall down my face, "I didn't want this to happen now. I made sure that even if Sirius didn't know, I would do the spell so we couldn't have a kid yet. You get twenty-four hours to do the spell. Once he was asleep I would do it. I thought I never missed a time."

Regulus went to open his mouth, but he was cut off by the sound of Sirius and Remus' voice coming down the hall. Sirius called out for me and I yelled back at it to come in the bathroom. He and Remus entered the bathroom and their faces fell.

Sirius rushed over towards me and kneeled down beside me, "What's wrong, love? Why are you crying?"

I looked up at him trying to force a smile, "I'm pregnant. Sirius, we are going to be parents."

The next day Walburga insisted we go to St.Mungo's to check out the baby. We needed to see how far along I was, so we would know when it was due. Sirius and I made a deal with Regulus and Remus that if it isn't two months yet, we would be hiding it from the other's.

Sirius held my held as the healer did scans and drew my blood. The healer smiled, "Well Mrs. Black, you seem to be around six weeks. The babies should be due around early May!"