FilledWithFear
That's what they should call me
That's what they should remind themselves when I come across as intimidating
That's what they should explain to others when I don't seem approachable or closed off
Because deep down I'm just a scared little boy
A scared little boy that doesn't want to get hurt again
But has also hurt others in the past as well
That's why I put on this tough, aggressive act
Because I'm FilledWithFear
It controls me everywhere I go
Everywhere I turn
Fear
Crippling anxiety
It makes me hate myself
I've tried so hard to let it go
Gave it everything I had
But I've convinced myself I don't deserve it
Convinced that I'm a terrible person and not worthy of it
I'm still that little boy innocently playing on the playground
Trying his best to fit in
But also that same little boy who never really grew up
Always wearing that unappealing frown on his face
But also has so much inside to give
Galaxies and galaxies upon love and joy
For not only himself
But for everyone in the world
But he's FilledWithFear
And then I thought to myself
That maybe...
Just maybe...
If he really tried...
It's time for that little boy to grow up
And finally show the world who he really is
