"It's just weed, bro"
That's what they say
That's what they tell me when I try explaining I might have a dependency
They tell me to relax and just let it be
But deep down I know this is becoming a problem
Or it has been for a while, but I wasn't ready to address it until now
The realization of how much time I spend high, or fantasizing of being high, is beginning to take a toll on me
Surely this must be a psychological issue deep inside that I've yet to confront
Yet even on days where I have positive, blissful experiences, there's always a "reason" to get stoned
Always an "excuse" as to how this current moment could be even better if I caught a nice buzz
Every night it seems I go to bed with the same intention
Tomorrow I'm going to go a full day without smoking
It seems so simple and achievable
Just one single day
But the moment I awake the following morning
There's always that temptation to smoke a quick bowl or take a few puffs from a joint
Are my expectations too high on what life should be like?
That every single waking moment should be a fun, happy one?
Maybe I have a control issue
Maybe I always feel the need to have things a certain way
But it's weird to talk about all of this
So many people love weed
Sometimes they even get upset if you try to make out any negative aspects of the plant
Just like my friends
They say I sound ridiculous when I claim cannabis to have any "addictive" properties
It's gotten to the point where I don't even mention it anymore
It only seems to stir up negative controversy whenever we blaze these days
Those same days where I'm drifting off from reality
Those same days where I'm having a hard time concentrating
Those same days where I'm unable to feel any motivation unless I'm high
Is it time for me to quit?
Or at least cut back the amount I'm consuming?
I've been smoking consistently for so long that it just feels like an everyday thing
I don't know...only time will tell
But then again
It's just weed, bro
