Lol yeah I've decided to start journaling again. Let's hope I don't delete this again. I don't know why but if I can't write everyday, I get angry at myself and end up deleting everything. But this time, I'll just write whenever I want to. It's alright if I can't regularly do it as doing it for few days is better than doing it for no days.
We have moved to a different house. This house is way more spacious than the last one, but we still have many boxes here and there. And honestly this house is way better than the last one. I love it here. I'm getting good sleep here. I don't feel much tired. And everything is just lovely. The only problem is my school is too far from here so it's hard and tiring for my mom and sister to drive me to school and take me back.
If I talk about today, then it was an amazing day. We have a morning school so I needed to get up at at least six a.m. to get ready but I had a test today so I decided to wake up at 5 am. Haha I would never wake up this early, but the atmosphere around this house is just beautiful (especially at night) , I don't know why I never feel tired no matter when I wake up in the morning. So yeag I read for a while and then got ready.
While my mom was driving me to the school, I kept looking at the sky. The morning air was so refreshing, I still remember the way how it so warmly embraced me. And I don't know why but I kept thinking about how much I love learning, and it just made me so happy. Honestly I'm usually stressed and sad on test days, but today was just completely different. I guess it might be because of the morning or because the subject on which I'm going to give test was my favourite.
This is just very random but I read it somewhere that the purpose of taking tests is breaking the human ego of 'i know everything'. In that sense, think tests are wonderful because we as humans always feel as if we know everything about that particular topic. If we know our mistakes, we would be able to grow and become someone better. BUT STILL it should be only limited to a healthy level. Our school literally sets our tests every twice or thrice a week. I've lost all hopes in education system. I'm just trying learn by my own and focus more on my self-education.
I have also been reading this self-help book named 'ikigai'. It's really helpful but I think I still can't properly follow it. There's this one thing mentioned in the book, that I very much like, it is that if you want to live longer, you should only eat until your eighty percent of stomach is filled. I really want to try it, as I always end up overeating or undereating. Though it's hard, I'm still trying. It is a wonderful book. I'm also meditating. I meditated a lot in the starting of the year but as time passed, I kind of got distracted. This is why I'm trying to bring that habit back again.
Talking about books, I really really want to read this book named 'perfume'. I read about it in one of comments under a song named byredo. And then I decided to see its reviews and oh my gosh it seemed so interesting, I just really really want to read it. I asked my mom if she could buy me the book, but she told me it was too expensive lol
but I'll convince her somehow.
Anyway, I have been doing so great. My days are not that bad, my schooling is also good. For the first time, I am actually enjoying going to school. Trust me, when I say I haven't felt this way about the school for like last four or five years. But nowadays I do not know why it just feels a little great to go to school. I guess this is it for today.
