[In this y/n has healing powers/ generation powers and an addiction to pain]
I walk into stark tower after being called in by Tony, I feel cold metal hitting my head instantly "okay, ow. What the fuck" I say lifting my hand to move away what was hitting me
"Move and I'll shoot" I hear a voice say, I turn my head to see a tall redhead holding a gun to my head, immediately she pulls the trigger, I feel the pain coursing through my body as i fall to the floor, i groan and rub my hand over the hole before standing up again, The redhead looks at me astonished
"Thanks" I say taking a deep breath and smiling, she looked at me confused as she put her gun away, I feel someone punch me in the back and stomach, I look down and see a fist shaped hole going from my back to my stomach
"I'm gunna be sick" the redhead says before walking off i scoff and turn around to see stark
"Hey kid" he says smirking, I nod and hold my hand over my stomach as it starts healing more "we want to recruit you, you can fight and well, you cant die" he says laughing as he speaks the last few words
"Okay. Am i staying here with the rest of you dorks?" I ask leaning against a wall, he nods and walks away leaving me there
[...]
I walk out if the bathroom that's connected to my bedroom and sit on my bed, a trail of blood follows behind me, I sigh and grab bandages from my bed and start wrapping my arms
"What the fuck did you do?" The redhead from earlier asked, I looked up then back at my arms signalling that I was finishing wrapping them before speaking
I sat on my bed and sighed "I'm addicted to pain specifically me feeling it or inflicting it onto others" I saw looking at her like it was a normal conversation, she nods, I sigh quietly preparing myself for the
'Its going to get better' speech for the hundredth time this month, but she doesn't say anything instead just sitting beside me, we sit in silence for a while before she finally speaks
"Why do you do it?" She asks as we both stare at the wall infront of us, i shrug in response
"I guess it feels like something is missing" I say truthfully, why was I opening up to a stranger who wanted to kill me a few hours ago? I look over to see her nodding she walks over slowly and pulls me into a hug, I let myself rest against her body
[...]
I wake up against someones body, I sit up confused "did I fall asleep?" I mutter quietly to myself, I hear shuffling behind me, I turn around quickly and hit my head against someone else's, I gasp in pleasure and rub my forehead
"You okay? And yeah you fell asleep" she says smiling "but are you okay?" She asks looking at me
"Did you forget our conversation earlier?" I ask laughing, she nods her head
"Right, the names natasha, by the way" she says edging slightly closer to me
"Uh y/n" I blurt out as her face comes close to my own, i stare into her eyes, i could get lost in them, Natasha gives me a quick peck on the lips before smiling and leaving the room
"Maybe that's what was missing.." I whisper to myself
[...]
I've been an avenger for a month now, me and nat mess around but havent made things official, I told her I stopped harming herself, she bought it. I wish I could tell her the truth but i don't want to worry her
I sit in the couch with a hoodie and sweatpants on, I turn the tv on waiting for everyone to come back from the market, I feel a sharp slap around the back of my head, I exhale through my nose deeply
"Woah what's up with you?" I hear tony say "I though you stopped the whole pain thing" he says walking around to face me
"I did" I mumble looking at the floor
"Mhm, I'm gunna go get Romanoff and she can ask you" he says smiling and walking out before I can get a chance to speak, I sigh and sink back into the couch
I hear footsteps approaching and sink deeper into the couch if it's even possible "Hey" I hear the familiar soft voice speak, I look up to face her, Nat takes a seat next to me and pulls me into her side "Tony said-" i cut her off and sit up to look her in the face
"I didn't stop nat" I look down as I speak, she makes me look back up at her
"What do you mena you didn't stop?" She looks at me with an unreadable expression
"I kept on doing everything, the cutting, the punching, the over training" I said still looking at her
"Why didn't you tell me y/n, I could have helped" I can hear her anger rising in her voice, I just shrug in response "Did anything i do help at all?" She asks standing up, I look up at her confused
"What do you mean?" I ask still sitting down
"The kissing, the sneaking around, loving you!" She shouts, a hand goes over her mouth "I didn't mean it like that" she whispers as I stand up, I push her
"Did it mean nothing? Was I just a stupid project to make your reputation better!?" I shout pushing her more
"No ofcourse not, y/n I didn't mean it like that" she says going to pull me I to a hug, I scoff and pull away
"Fuck off natasha. Leave me alone" I mutter before walking out,
I knock on Steve's door "Come in! He shouts I open the door and stand in the doorway leaning against it "ah, what do you need y/n" he says sitting on his bed
"I'm leaving steve, you can tell everyone while I go pack" I whisper as a few choked sobs escape
"What? Why?" Steve asks standing up and walking over to me
"Natasha didn't like me. She faked it. She used me as a charity project" I say as he pulls me into a hug
"No she didn't believe me" he says letting me cry into his chest "she loves you, alot y/n, she wants you too be her girl" he says rocking back and forth with me
"No she doesn't" I whisper trying to pull away from him "she just wanted to make herself look better" I huff as ny anger starts rising again, I clench my fists slightly my nails digging into the palm of my hands, I feel steve let go of me, and another pair of arms wrap around me, I look up to see Natvstaring at me with teary eyes "get of me" I mumble trying to pull away, she tightens her grip on me
"I'm not letting you go again" she whispers pushing my head down onto her chest "I do love you" she adds sighing "I love you alot y/n, I didn't mean to shout that" she adds kissing the top off my head
"Then why did you say it?" I ask my voice hoarse
"You lied to me and it hurt me" Nat answered, rubbing my back slightly
"What you said hurt me, tasha, alot actually" I snap back, natasha pulled away slightly making me look at her
"I'll prove to you I didn't mean anything" Nat said, I looked at her confused, suddenly I was lifted up and moved out of Steve's room to Nats
"Friday, sound proof the room" Nat said smirking as she layed me down gently on the bed
