TW: READER IS DELUSIONAL
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You hadn't gotten much sleep lastnight, natasha tried everything to help, holding you, putting on your favourite show and making you some warm food to try and get you to sleep, everyone and then se would hear you repeating "they're watching" and staring intensely at the wall, it worried her, watching the love of her life paranoid and she couldn't fo anything, the pharmacy hadn't renewed your medication
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You got up out of bed feeling slightly better than lastnight, you dragged yourself away from the bed and left your wife sleeping, you dragged your heavy body across the room and into the bathroom
You looked in the mirror, you squinted your eyes at the figure you saw and instantly looked back behind you, nothing, you tried to convince yourself it was just your mind playing tricks on you, you brushed it off and steered clear of the bathroom mirror avioding looking at it
You picked up the blue toothbrush that sat in the little black cup next Natasha's green one and the toothpaste, you picked the toothpaste and put some on the bristles of the toothbrush, you started brushing your teeth, or you were until you heard a scream, you looked at the door and saw natasha, she looked disturbed
"What?" You asked not noticing the blood dripping down your chin
"Y/n baby, take the razor out of your mouth" she said cautiously, you where confused, Natasha on the other hand was terrified, she had woken up and saw her spouse in the bathroom with blood running down her chin and hand, only to realise she was brushing her teeth with a razor
You took it out of your mouth and stared downbeat the bloodied razor in your hand, you dropped it into the sink, everything seeming to slow down, as Nat rushed over to you, and checked over, none of it felt real as she walked you back to the bed and handed you a glass of water, you felt so detached and exhausted
You sat in the bed staring at a wall trying to figure what was happening everything felt like it was happening so fast yet tantalising slow, It felt too real and so fake at the same time,
You didn't notice when natasha pulled your head down onto her chest and started playing with your hair
You didn't notice when she lifted you up after about an hour or two and left the room
You didn't notice when she came back with your favourite food
The only thing you did feel was blood filling your mouth before pouring out and filling your hands, you looked down at your hands in horror and turned to Natasha, she only looked at you confused and slowly sat down on the bed, she pulled you in close to her and pulled the both of you back so you where laying down. She hated seeing you so distraught, it broke her heart but she did everything she could to help
You layed like that for a few hours, you looked over to look at nat and were taken back when you saw it was wanda holding you and not Natasha
"Wheres nat?" You ask confused, wanda looks back at you just as confused
"Y/n? Did you forget again?" She asks her voice soft as she placed her hand lovingly on your cheek "She went vormir to get the soul stone, only clint came back" her voice barely above a whisper, you look at uo at her still confused "that was two years ago"
"What?"
[This wasnt checked so I dont know if it makes sense at all]
