Amnesia

I'm still here.

Axel's pov

"Love! Hey! Get up!!! Please!" I yelled after pulling the debris off of their body. I'm shaking. I told you to stay there, didn't I? Right? I did! I know I did! Please wake up.. please. 

"No. This can't happen, love.." I say after noticing the pole. Going through. Their body. I fall to the ground. I can't even feel my legs. My heart shatters into a million pieces. 

"Stay with me dammit." I try to yell, but my voice just cracks. I look around trying to find help. No one. The roads are empty. The building is still falling. This wasn't how it was supposed to end darling. 

"You- you were supposed to love me.. and.. and that was the last use of my ability. Love, please just get up." My body feels numb. I reach for their hand and hold it as the warmth slowly becomes cold. No blood flow. No pulse. Nothing. 

"You were supposed to love me!" I yell out with any strength that I had. I hear the sirens begin to come closer.

" I can't leave you. I can't leave. I can't. Please get up. Open your eyes Please." I beg, falling to my knees sightly nudging them. The police are down the road now. I slowly get up, holding your hand until it fell back to the ground. Lifeless. I then slowly, walk away. Every bone in my body is telling me to turn around and check to see if you got up, but I know you aren't going to. 

"Why?" I cry softly, I stare down at my hands while I walk. They're covered in your blood. 

Is this all that I'll have left of you?

My heart sank into my stomach as I wiped the blood onto my shirt. 

"You were supposed to love me," I whisper to myself. All my senses are dulled as I walk into the dark woods. I still hear the sirens faintly. My body hurts. Not from soreness or being overworked. But from seeing you go from smiling to no expression at all. Your eyes had no gleam, and your face lost its color. Because of me. You are gone, and I'm still here. I find a tree stump and sit down.

"You didn't make me do anything-" I stop. The flashbacks hit me. I was so indulged in the time when I traveled back to try and save you, that I didn't realize you did tell me to do those things.

"Axel! Let's do something fun for once!" You said while laying over the bed on your back.

"What would you like to do love?" I said smiling at you. 

"I want to burn something." You said while sitting up. 

"What?" I respond surprised by the sudden request.

"I want to go destroy something, Axel." You say again. I look at you and laugh. 

"I'm serious." You say making eye contact with me. I laugh again 

"Yeah, okay," I say dismissing it.

Then the next day, You did it. The hotel we stayed in, you burned it to the ground. Not thinking twice about the people inside. You even laughed when I cried about it. I hated that part of you. But, you used my love for you against me.

"Axel! It's your turn to burn something." You say. I look at you like you were insane. 

"Hell no," I say in a serious tone. You then walked up to me and seemingly, pulled me in to kiss me for the first time, then stopped right before you did. 

"Axel, I will love you forever if you do." You say while slowly caressing my cheek. My skin felt warm under your hand and my love for you clouded my logic.

Then I burned down the daycare, hoping no one would be inside at eleven at night. Then to my luck, people were. They screamed in agony as you made me watch and listen. You laughed and laughed and laughed while I was traumatized. I begged for you to let me go, but you didn't. You sat there holding me down making me listen.  

"You said you'd love me," I whisper under my breath as tears poured down my face. My hands, ripping the hair out of my head. My legs bouncing from anxiety. My heart pounding. Every single time I close my eyes, your body lays there, lifeless. I couldn't do anything to stop it. Nothing. I was hopeless. It was no use. Nothing would've stopped your death. More flashbacks flooded in while I cried and screamed.

"Axel!" You yelled

One.

"Hey! Axel!" You say calling me over while smiling.

Two.

"I'll love you forever if you do." You say, caressing my cheek.

Three.

"YOU SAID YOU"D LOVE ME!" I yelled. My voice was hoarse from hyperventilating. I can't stop crying. I can't stop screaming. I can't stop moving. I was useless. I was the reason you died. I'm the reason you couldn't love me. It was all my fault and you knew it. Even with time travel, I couldn't save you. Did you know it'd end like this? Did you have an ability too? Why didn't you tell me? You always loved talking about mine. 

"Please.." I whisper. I look up and stare into the darkness, trying to see your figure walk up to me. But it never happened. All I saw was darkness. Nothingness. 

A flashlight. A figure. Is that you?

"Love?" I yelled standing up to try and see you more clear. The footsteps approached at a quicker pace. 

"Hey! Darling is that you?" I yell again, now walking towards the sound. 

"Put your hands up where I can see them," Said the officer with a gun pointed towards me. I stare at him, attempting to shield my eyes from the bright light.

"Put your hands up!" He yells again. I comply and raise my hands. He approaches me slowly while putting the gun down. 

"Why do you have blood on you, sir?" He asks, I look down and pull on my shirt to see the blood more clearly.

"Was the person on the ground your partner sir?" He asks. I nod and fall to the ground to cry. The officer approaches me and rubs me on my back to comfort me. 

"I'm sorry I ran sir, I- I just couldn't look at them like that.." I choke out between cries. He rubs my back more.

"I understand sir." He says assuringly. I feel for the gun in my jacket pocket. 

It's there.

I slowly crawl into a ball on my hands and knees crying, while the officer attempts to comfort me. As I'm doing so, I pull the gun from my jacket and take it off of safety. The officer hears the clicking sound and begins to step back to draw his weapon. I beat him to it.

Three gunshots echoed in the trees. None were aimed at me. I stand over the officer while he gasps for air. 

"Now I understand the rush.." I say quietly to myself. I drop the gun onto the ground and walk away. My body still hurts. Tears are still falling. The darkness surrounds me. The bags under my eyes begin to feel cold and my eyes hang low. 

I'm still here.

Author's Notes: HEY!!!!!!! that was dark.. did you cry? How many times are you reading? Do you get it now?  I know my writing isn't amazing, and it may have been somewhat rushed. But I absolutely loved writing this. So more stories will be coming. They will be better. Yes, there will be happy endings. Possibly thinking about a book just for Axel tbh. Any new prompts I have will more than likely be posted on my TikTok so be on the lookout. Again, I appreciate all the feedback and reads. It makes me so very happy.