two blind kids [ranbooxreader /p]

12 <33

TW: EATING DISORDER, LACK OF SELF CARE !!!

y/n's pov:

ziplines, trampolines, streams, ordering food. ranboo. ranboo. ranboo.. miles. miles, miles, miles. do you even know what youre doing to me? ive had to call your mom for michael to ask if you home yet. you look happy miles, but i miss you. i had to call my parents to come home early because i couldn't take care of michael. i feel horrible. its been months since you left i really can't imagine how long you've been gone, ive had barely two sticks of gum, two bottles of water and maybe one or two meals, which i didn't fully eat. steven freaking universe has been on repeat, ive not left my room, not counting going to my attached bathroom. i haven't showered, brushed my teeth, or ate properly in months on end. ive failed as a sister, a daughter, and even a friend. steven universe only makes me sadder, emptier. you left a day later, a day. octobers in two months. californias beaches have been more empty, of covid or not, i dont know. i know its because you left me. I miss you miles, come back soon. or dont, nevermind, i could care less. i dont even know anymore. i miss your laugh, i dont wanna say it though. i tried shifting! it didnt work. Your missed by more people then me, michael needs you more than i do. he just started kindergarten! he begged for you to be there, i feel bad for the kid, truely do, i feel horrible hes in the middle of this, i love the kid. he loved you. miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles miles

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a/n: hi :3 omg i love writing angst it's so fun shdhs haha i love you all crying it's SO funny 😍😍 /lh /j <33 also not me writing some of this about my experiences/thoughs ahah /hj

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