I see you - complete

Chapter 25

Blake's pov

If time traveling was possible I would go back.

Back to that rainy Thursday afternoon when I watched my little sister being lowered into the ground.

Six feet under, peaceful and quiet.

Back to the car ride with Maddison to her house.

Back to the moment I undressed her and myself, and back to the moment we got intimate.

Why would I go back?

To stop myself. I would stop myself from making the biggest mistake of my life.

I would grab myself by the shoulder and shake myself back to reality.

But back then everything seemed so unreal.

My whole life became one big blur from the moment I saw the life drain out of my sister's eyes.

It felt like my life was sucked into a black whole without any instructions on how to get out undamadged.

Now I'm standing here with three red roses in my hand at the exact same spot as that one rainy Thursday afternoon.

The thorns of the roses digging into the fragile skin of my hand.

The aggressive sound of thunder in the distance being my only company at this graveyard.

I lowered my gaze and placed a rose in front of my sister's tombstone.

My eyes slid over the words on the rectangle shaped stone,

Aylin Colleen King 

02-07-2004 ~ 07-24-2020

A daughter, sister and friend

May you rest in peace

The date of death knocking the breath out of my lungs, they succeed to do that every time I visit.

I try to stop by at least once every two weeks but some days I drive up here and I just can't get out of the car.

It only has been a few months after all, a few months since I lost the last bit of family I had.

I closed my eyes and walked to the grave next to hers, the one that belonged to my mother.

I crouched down and placed the second rose in front of her stone, I put my hand flat against the cold wet stone and a cold chill ran through my body.

Elysee Melinda Hayward-King

10-12-1977 ~ 01-16-2020

A beloved mother, sister and wife

May you rest in peace

The thick rain drops poured down relentlessly while I sat there, crouching down in front of my mother's tombstone completely drenched.

A loud thunder reached my ears again before blue lightening lit up the sky.

"I miss you mom," I said out loud "I could really use your advice right now."

My head hung low, knowing I disappointed her by betraying the girl I love like I did.

I pulled my hand back before I stood up and walked to my father's grave.

It took a lot of money and effort, but I managed to get them all buried next to each other, I wanted them to be together. Not even death could separate them, I wouldn't let that happen.