The Virgin Surrogate

Chapter 36

PS: i was feeling lazy to proofread, so i didnt really edit, pls ignore the mistakes. I just had to update today. Thanks for your understanding and i crave your indulgence on this. 😊😘

THIRD PERSON P.O.V

It is another weekend, the day Tara and her father had agreed to meet. They were both anxious about their meeting not knowing what to expect from the other. Caleb had invited his wife to come with him, it was a last chance to see if she was ready to mend fences between her and Tara but she had been adamant on never seeing Tara again. Caleb knew he loved his wife, he knew if given a chance he would do it again and make better choices but he also knew there was no salvaging their marriage, it was going to sink whether he liked it or not. But he had an option to salvage his relationship with his daughter or let it sink with his marriage. So he is going for the former, to try his best, maybe his daughter will forgive and someday come to love him.

He got to her apartment on time as scheduled and he was welcomed in reluctantly. But he couldn't blame her could he, she had every reason to be wary of him, he had not been the best father by stretch. After the greetings were exchanged, they sat in awkward silence, each having a lot to say but not knowing how to start. So Caleb broke the silence

"Tara...I am sorry. I am so sorry for all the pain I had caused you and the pain your mother must have caused you"

"What pain dad? I'm fine" Tara feigned ignorance at her father's words. True she was hurt, but she had learned to deal with her pain and to stop expecting much from people even if they meant a lot to you.

"Tara, I know we have wronged you badly. You deserved better, you shouldn't have suffered for what you knew nothing about, and you were an innocent child brought into the world to face the consequence of my actions. But as stupid as they might have been, I wouldn't wish it another way, if it means I get to be your father. You are beautiful soul and you have grown into a strong woman, stronger than your father if i may add. I only wish I had shown you more love. I am truly ashamed of my actions Tara, please forgive me. I am proud of the woman you have become and I know this might not mean anything to you, it might be too late to have any effect but I'll still say it. I love you Tara, I always did and I always will". He had to pour out his heart, she deserved to know it was never her fault and truly he is happy she is his daughter and not because she is his only surviving daughter.

Tara sat in silence trying to take in all her dad had just said and analyze it. It all seemed unbelievable. How long had she wished for this exact words, for her father to finally tell her he loved her, for him to look at her with affection showing in his eyes just the way he had with her sister. But now that she heard them, it meant nothing to her, he couldn't just walk in suddenly and start proclaiming love to her after his other daughter had died. She wasn't going to let him go easily, she was not the same Tara of old

"How could you dad? How could you walk in here to say all these things? Do you know how hard I wished, hoped, you would love me, even if it is half as much as Felicia? You turned your back on me, the highest affection I ever got from you was a slight nod of the head. You never held my hands, you never hugged, and you never kissed my forehead. I saw my friends' fathers do this to them and I always felt something was wrong with me, maybe if I became better you would show me love but nothing got your attention. Then I stared rebelling and then suddenly I was able to get your attention. You would call me in and scold me, comparing me to your perfect daughter but that attention was what I needed no matter how fleeting they were, so I continued to rebel. Then finally I was needed to be a surrogate for your perfect daughter's babies, I was eager to do it, always eager to please you and mum. I thought maybe you would finally love me, maybe you would be proud of your daughter but no it was till about your grandchildren" she stopped now, fully sobbing. She was angry at herself for showing how much their actions had affected her but it hurt too much to know you are not wanted by your own family.