12.I'm still insecure

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It has been 1 month since the incident...inayat is 5 months old now....she is pampered by her dad as if she is a princess (well for her dad she is)
But our haseena is a bit lost in her own world from the past few days....
Anu noticed this and it was bothering him too...

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One night~

Inu was sleeping in her cradle and haseena was applying her body lotion....anu came out of the washroom and sat beside hm....

As- jaan...

Hm-hmm ?

As-kuchh baat hai kya jo aapko itna pareshan kar raha hai...hum dekh rahe hai aap pichhle kuchh dino se kahi khoyi khoyi si lag rahi hai...agar kuchh hai toh aap hume bina kisi sankoch ke keh sakti hai...(wrapping his arms around her)

Hm-(laying down) anu aap nahi samjhoge....

As-kyu nahi samjhenge ? Aap keh kar toh dekhiye (lovingly)

Hm- (sighs) hum kuchh mahine pehle se hi postpartum depression se guzar rahe the (mujhe zyaada nahi pata par I think haseena ko kuchh aisa hi lag raha tha) ...hume pehle samajh nahi aaya ki hume sab itna bura kyu lag raha hai...phir hume iske baare mein humare ek dost ne kaha....hume lagne laga tha ki...humari zarurat kisi ko nahi hai...hume akela feel ho raha tha...aap the humare paas par aapko duty bhi toh hoti hai na isliye jab aap jaate the tab hume bohot lonely feel hota tha...par ab hum theek hai....

As-aap theek toh bilkul nahi hai (angrily but in a calm way) itna kuchh aapko jhelna pada aapne hume bataya kyu nahi ?

Hm- anu aap kitna kuchh karte hai humare liye...hum aapko yeh sab batake aur pareshan nahi karna chahte the...(blankly staring the ceiling)

As-hume apne patni ki seva karne mein koi pareshani nahi hoti....aur batayie kya baat hai ?

Hm- nahi...aur kuchh nahi hai...

As-batayie...

Hm-hum insecure bhi hai...

As-kis baat ko lekar insecure jaan ?

Hm- hai kuchh baate...aapko yaad hai woh tara...

As- haan woh humari college ki dost jo kal mall mein mili?

Hm- haan....

As-uska kya ?

Hm- woh kitni sundar hai...model jaise figure hai...aapse attract bhi ho jati hai...hume tab kitna insecure feel ho raha tha ki aap humse zyada usse pasand karoge kyuki ab toh humari figure bhi maintained nahi hai...

As-jaaan....kya kuchh bhi ? (Shocked) humne aapse pehle bhi kaha tha ki hum aapke jism se nahi aapke dil se pyaar kiya hai...humare rishte mein koi bhi fark nahi padega agar aapki figure maintained nahi rahegi....aur abhi bass 5 mahina hua hai jaan...aap exercise kariye diet par dyaan dijiye...aur aapki duty ke liye aapki figure ban jayegi....

Hm- I love you so much anu...thank you humari life mein aane ke liye (hugged him)

As- shukriyaada toh hume aapka karna chahiye...humare feeke (tasteless maybe) jeevan ko itni rangeen banane ke liye...hume pyaar ka matlab sikhane ke liye...hume humare shehzaadi se milane ke liye...sabke liye...hum jitna aapka shukriyaada kare utna kam hai...(kissed her forehead for a little long) m
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Hm stares at him with love

As-kyaa ? (Chuckles)

Hm-(smiles) kuchh nahi...hume firse pehle jaisa mehsus (feel) karane ke liye shukriya...
(snugled into him) good night.....

As-shubh ratri

Par new parents ki qismat itni achhi nahi hoti...

Inu started to cry....

As-hum dekhte hai...

(After crying for 20 mins...inu slept but again after an hour started to cry again)

This time anuseena cried sarcastically tooo...🤣

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Next day~

Hm- anu utho na...

As-sone do puri raat nahi soye hai....

Hm- hum kaunsa soye hai ? (Yawns)

As-toh kisne mana kiya hai ? So jaiye na...

Hm-aaj inu ki vaccination hai na....phir duty par bhi toh jana hai aapko....(pulling him)

As-haan...haan...uth gye hai...

Hm- chai laye ??

As-haan...aap inu ko ready kar dijiye....aap bhi ho jayie...phir nikalte hai, aaj ek meeting bhi hai...haldi jana padega...

Hm-hmmm

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