Beautiful Darkness: A Psychopath

Chapter 2

Tris

My hand was on my forehead as I walked towards my house but I can feel that Aiden was behind me, still following me. I sighed and looked at him.

"Why do you keep on following me on my way home?" I seriously asked. I knew it from the beginning. It started, I think, last month.

"You knew?" He asked despite the confused look on his face. He seemed hesitant talking to me but still responded to my question.

"Why do you think I'm asking I didn't know?"

"Bakit hindi mo ako kinausap?"

That question caught me, why didn't I? Gusto ko ding itanong sa sarili ko 'yon. Bakit hindi ko siya kinausap? Bakit hindi ko siya itinaboy na siyang normal nalang sa akin na gawain?

I shrugged and started walking away because I don't want him thinking that I am giving him my time.

"I didn't want to because I don't care. Hindi ko na problema kung ganoon mo ako gustong makasama na hanggang sa paguwi ko ay sinusundan mo ako," I said with a hint of sarcasm.

I was about to open the gate of my house when he talked for the last time.

"It's to watch out for things like this..." He said in a serious voice which gave me the thought that he had an idea of my personality disorder. Worried, I slowly turn around to face him.

Kung may alam siya bakit wala siyang sinasabi sa akin? Alam niya ba? Hindi ko inalis ang tingin ko sa kaniya para maging sigurado kung talagang may alam ba siya o iba ang nasa isip niya.

"I knew it since we were in med school..."

My heart throbbed. I can feel my anxiety rising again.

"Alam kong may pinagdadaanan ka and you're having a hard time recovering. That's why I never leave your side... para kahit papaano hindi mo maisip na mag-isa ka. Napansin ko din na lumalala na 'yung mga ginagawa mo so I started walking you home every night in that alley,"

I smiled by the thought that I was sacred for nothing. He thought I was depressed...

"Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga sinasabi mo... pero alam mo sometimes I also think it would be much better to just be a person with depression and not something else," I said before going inside my house. I quickly palmed my forehead after that encounter. It is true, I sometimes wonder what would be better... being a person with depression or being a psychopath?

The next day, while doing my rounds for the nth time he was there again. This time something has changed in him, he looked like he is working here already because of the ID that he is wearing, it is normally worn by an intern or volunteer.

I get that he is a kind guy with money but why would he go through that hardship? I just can't understand. I also can't figure out how he can smile happily while doing what he is doing right now. I just shook my head and continued walking.

After a long round this morning... listening to what the other nurses were talking about, I was right. He is a volunteer and he did it because he is a person who 'likes to help and care for people with mental illness' what an immaculate reason he got.

After hours I was so mad after I was scolded by the head doctor because one of the interns under me 'accidentally' gave a patient a wrong medicine that had cause the patient to have a seizure.

I hit that nurse...

As hard as I can,

This might seem too cruel to other people but it is not to me since worse than that is what I experienced. Nasa malayong lugar mula sa Maynila ang kinalalagyan ng lungsod na kinalalagyan naming ngayon kaya ang mga ganu'ng bagay ay hindi na masiyadong napagbibigyan pansin kahit na magsumbong pa sila, wala sila magiging ebidensiya. Walang kahit na anong CCTV ang naka lagay sa lugar namin dito.