COLLISION-THE PAST AND THE PRESENT

SOULMATE

                   
      What in the world even soulmate is? Me being a man who can do nothing for himself what will Ever do for my soulmate? I guess if there was no one as my soulmate but unfortunately it exists it was good for them if they didn't exist because I don't even love myself how will I even love them? Who will ever tolerate a person like me? I'm just a loser and useless. Even I'm burden at my hyung and my parents I don't want to be a burden on my soulmate. Still I want to meet that person who loved me in our previous life.

JUNGKOOK'S POV

   It's a new day but everything is same. I opened my eyes and looked at window birds were awake now searching for food moon went to sleep and now sun was awake doing his work just like everyday everyone will be awake now and will go to their work just like sun and birds and me too. "WHY DON'T WE SLEEP FOR SOME MORE TIME ?" it was a new voice. "Wait- who are you ? Where's the previous voice?" I asked "I'M HERE" previous voice said. "WELL, ANOTHER VOICE CAME TO GIVE YOU COMPANY YOU ARE TOO LONELY, I, ALONE WAS NOT ENOUGH SO ANOTHER ONE CAME TOO" it added. "I'm not lonely I have hyung and now as I'll start socialising again I'll make new friends too" I said and started to get ready for my second day at hospital.

         "Hyung you know today when I woke up a new voice talked to me" I said when hyung was making breakfast for us. "What it said ?" Hyung asked. "It kept commanding me when I decided to wake up and get ready it said me to sleep more when I was getting ready I decided to wear all black today and it said me to wear white shirt and blue jeans. When I was making my hair it said I should cut my hair but I cut my hear just a week ago" I answered. "So, what you said to that voice?" He asked another question. "I ignored it I don't like that voice is commanding me or trying to control me" I answered. "Hmm... let's eat breakfast" hyung said.

      "Jungkookie" hyung said when we were done with our breakfast. "Hmm" I looked at him. "Let's contact psychiatrist" he said. "Hyung" I said but Hyung cut me in between. "I'm worried about you koo I don't want to loose my brother whenever you talk about the voice talking to you it scares me now when you said about a new voice commanding you I'm even more scared" he had tears in his eyes. "SEE YOU ARE BURDEN ON HIM" the old voice said. "WHY DON'T YOU RUN AWAY" new voice said.

     "It's talking to you again, isn't it?" Hyung asked and i came back in earth and nodded. He cupped my face wiped my tears. I was crying ? When ? How tf I didn't realise ?" "What did it say?" He asked. "one said that I'm a burden on you another said me to run away" I sobbed. "No, koo you aren't burden on hyung. Hyung is nothing without you. you are my everything you are not at all burden on me and I mean it please never think about leaving me alone and running away" hyung was now crying I couldn't help but hug him tightly and cry with him.

      
We both were in car hyung was gonna drop me at hospital. After our crying session hyung said that today he'll contact psychiatrist and If I won't corporate he'll tell everything to our parents. I asked him to not to tell anything to them and he didn't say anything to them but now he threatened me that he'll tell everything to them so I agreed to corporate. I'm on my way to hospital. It's my second day of going to hospital and I'm feeling nervous once again. Jin Hyung, told me not get panic and do the work peacefully. And most importantly don't get in the trap of that voice again. Day 1 of hospital was good but very hectic for me. The two doctors I met were really nice to me. Dr Taehyung and Dr Jimin. They are siblings. tbh, they are too handsome.

    "THEY ARE HANDSOME BUT NOT YOU. YOU WERE A FOOL AND YOU ARE STILL A FOOL. YOU ARE UGLY." That voice in my head screamed.
"I know I'm not handsome. I know I'm a fool. Now can you please shut up. Hobi Hyung told me to ignore you and I'll do that." I replied. I started looking out from the window to make my mind diverted from that sound. And in few minutes I reached there.

I just reached here and I saw a doctor whom unfortunately I knew. He was talking to Dr. Taehyung and Jimin. They both noticed me and waved hand. I went to them.
"Good Morning Jungkook, He is our friend Dr. Yoongi." Dr. Jimin said.

"Ohh, Hello Doctor. Nice to meet you" I couldn't help but great him with smile.
He looked me with a suspicious look and then said,
"Nice to meet you too, Jungkook."
"Do you both know each other?" DR. Tae asked.
"Yes" dr. Yoongi no wait psychiatrist yoongi replied.
"How?" Dr. Jimin then asked.

   "Well dr. Tae as I'm here now, let's go. You promised you that we will do a hospital tour." I tried to change the topic.
"Yes, let's go."  Hereplied.
"Don't Call me doctor, call me Hyung. Okay?" He then added.
"okay Hyung. Taehyungie Hyung?" I said.
"Taehyungie Hyung?" Ahh that's cute." Doctor Jimin laughed.
"Okay now let's go. Yoongi Hyung and Jimin we are going see you later." Doctor Taehyung said.