"Do you take Lea Ysabelle Sarmiento to be your lawful wife to have into book from this day forward, for better for worst, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health until death do you part?" father asked him as he gazed at him.
"I do father." Hance answered with full of assurance and no doubt, while he is intently looking at me. He caress my hand as he smiled at me while he is already in a verge of cry because of so much glee that he is feeling right as of this moment. I'm a jinks, the tables suddenly went on me. Father look at me with authority.
"Do you take Hance Dela fuente to be your lawful husband to have into book, from this day forward, for better for worst, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health until death do you part?" father asked me the same question he asked to Hance.
I nervously gulped into his question. I don't know why, but I suddenly felt doubt and hesitant into his question.
Iba 'yung kaba na nararamdaman ko. Gulong-gulo 'yung isip ko. My mind been bombarded with a lot of questions like 'am I really ready for this? Kung kailan nasa tapat na ako ng simbahan, tsaka naman ako naguluhan. Why I hadn't asked this kind of rumors to myself before? Bakit ngayon lang?
I can feel the pressure and tension with all the looks that are people giving to me, seems they're waiting for my answer.
I look at Hance. He smiled at me like he's already anticipating that I would say I do. My tears suddenly slowly drop on my cheeks like a domino. I immediately wiped it and blink my eyes many times.
I bowed my head and look on the bouquet that I'm holding.
"Again, I repeat. Do you take Hance Dela Feunte to by your husband?"
I shook my head.
"I'm sorry, Hance... I'm sorry. Hi-hindi ko pa kaya." Nag halo-halo na 'yung emosyong nararamdaman ko sa panahong ito kaya, ewan ko ba pero bigla na lang ako napa-takbo. Ni hindi ko na nga rin inisip kung ano ang posibleng mangyayari sa akin pag-katapos nito. Basta ang alam ko hindi pa ako handang magpakasal. Hindi ko pa kaya. Hindi dahil sa hindi ko siya mahal, kung 'di ay dahil marami pa talaga akong katanungan sa aking isipan.
Hindi ko siya pwedeng mahalin ng hindi pa ako buo. Hindi siya 'yung may kulang, nasa akin 'yung mali. Sana balang araw mapatawad niya ako kung bakit ko nagawa ito.
Kasalanan bang hindi siputin ang taong pinangakuan mo ng kasal? pero paano kung sa panahon na 'yun kailangan ko lang din hanapin 'yong sarili ko? Na kailangan ko lang din sagutin lahat ng mga katanungan sa isip ko?
I love him but, I'm sorry I need to let him go. He don't deserve me. Hindi niya diserve ang babaeng madali lang sumuko. I'm sorry but maybe we're not just meant to be.
Sa bangungot na ginawa ko may biglang dadating sa buhay ko at mas lalo pang guguluhin ang dati ng magulong mundo ko. Sa mga maling nagawa ko noon sana ikaw na ang pinaka tamang magiging desisyon ko.
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